TheHopeLine

Coach: Thanks for chatting with us ... what is going on that we might help you with?

7:13 AM

Coach: are you there?

7:14 AM

Christina Barrett: yes

7:14 AM

Coach: How are you this morning?

7:14 AM

Christina Barrett: Well, I just stomped my foot as I felt and stormed sorta to my room. My dad acted like something was really wrong.

7:14 AM

Coach: okay...

7:14 AM

Christina Barrett: I was doing sorta okay. I can't get rid of this feeling in my private that's like stimulated too much or something.

7:15 AM

Coach: alright...

7:15 AM

Christina Barrett: I was just thinking to myself in the room getting some food, and now everyone is acting like i'm all bad.

7:15 AM

Coach: i see...

7:15 AM

Christina Barrett: They keep acting like I can't feel anything right.

7:15 AM

Christina Barrett: I feel I want to tell on my dad so someone can straighten out the comfort in my life.

7:15 AM

Coach: tell on your dad for what?

7:16 AM

Christina Barrett: Also, my aunt will be here for 4 days supposedly for my mom. I want to tell on my dad for sending me secret messages that hurt me and then acting weird around me for real.

7:16 AM

Coach: well, i can understand that for sure.

7:16 AM

Christina Barrett: Sometime, I tend to get upset cuz how mean they are and digging into my thoughts.

7:16 AM

Christina Barrett: They didn't do that growing up, so it's like all of a sudden I have no chance.

7:16 AM

Coach: the messages are mean?

7:16 AM

Christina Barrett: Yes.

7:17 AM

Christina Barrett: Like, I don't remember the basic 1s, I can't think.

7:17 AM

Christina Barrett: They start dissing important things in my life now cuza it.

7:17 AM

Coach: okay...

7:17 AM

Christina Barrett: I don't know what to do or who to tell on. I saw my therapist yesterday and made this apparent.

7:17 AM

Coach: what did your therapist say about all this?

7:17 AM

Christina Barrett: They started it.

7:17 AM

Christina Barrett: Nothing.

7:17 AM

Coach: oh really. thats not good.

7:18 AM

Christina Barrett: She just is there to talk to me, doesn't know about my family.

7:18 AM

Christina Barrett: She is nice, but that's all, someone to tell me how to stay out of being locked up.

7:18 AM

Coach: hmm. i see...

7:18 AM

Christina Barrett: She can't fix my dad. She has no idea how I can get by in any complex way, just that I shouldn't be getting mad I think.

7:18 AM

Christina Barrett: But they won't stop. It's like they can't matter to me.

7:18 AM

Coach: you have every right to get mad.

7:18 AM

Coach: its okay to feel that way.

7:18 AM

Christina Barrett: My aunt might act weird.

7:19 AM

Christina Barrett: I think my favorite show ends on Sunday and we're supposed to have a turkey dinner.

7:19 AM

Christina Barrett: She'll be here until then..

7:19 AM

Coach: okay...

7:19 AM

Christina Barrett: She invited herself to help out with my mom supposedly.

7:19 AM

Coach: whats the matter with your mom?

7:20 AM

Christina Barrett: She might have breast cancer. They just took out something like a freckle that was growing cancer behind 1 eye. She said she got glasses from a car accident.

7:20 AM

Christina Barrett: She stopped eating meat.

7:20 AM

Christina Barrett: Much.. but I think she eats more chicken than me.

7:20 AM

Christina Barrett: She's a physical person.

7:21 AM

Coach: okay...

7:23 AM

Coach: what can i do to help?

7:24 AM

Christina Barrett: I find it an insult that my aunt is coming and also think something about Ellen DeGeneres was involved, like she communicates with my parents and other people they know of.

7:24 AM

Coach: why is it an insult that your aunt is coming?

7:25 AM

Christina Barrett: What's going on is she'll be available in a hotel. My aunt won't make it as special that my favorite show ends this weekend I think.. I am not a whiner, but I think that's why she's coming.

7:25 AM

Christina Barrett: It was something big for me, and I don't find my dad's shit funny.

7:25 AM

Coach: because you show is ending?

7:25 AM

Christina Barrett: Yes.

7:25 AM

Coach: what show is ending?

7:25 AM

Christina Barrett: Also because Ellen is involved in all this crap to me.

7:25 AM

Christina Barrett: Rising Star.. I love voting and even Tweet like the judges.

7:26 AM

Coach: whay makes you think Ellen is involved?

7:26 AM

Coach: oh cool. that is a pretty good show.

7:26 AM

Christina Barrett: Because I figured it out, like I could tell she knew stuff about me.

7:26 AM

Christina Barrett: Yea, I like Josh Groban..

7:26 AM

Christina Barrett: My aunt visiting won't really ruin it, but I don't want their shit.

7:26 AM

Coach: i understand.

7:26 AM

Coach: so no one else knows about your dad's messages?

7:26 AM

Christina Barrett: What about our turkey dinner? My aunt doesn't care about my mom. She's supposedly here worried about my mom, but 4 days?

7:27 AM

Christina Barrett: No, I post them on my blog.

7:27 AM

Christina Barrett: I get really fed up having to do that.

7:27 AM

Coach: oh really. do you think that is why he acts weird around you. does he know you do that?

7:27 AM

Christina Barrett: I'm so hungry, we don't want my aunt eating all my food.

7:27 AM

Coach: alright...

7:28 AM

Christina Barrett: Yes, but he doesn't talk to me about it online. My shit blog doesn't allow comments, but my regular 1 does, and I have a free forum.

7:28 AM

Coach: okay. what kind of messages does he send you?

7:29 AM

Christina Barrett: He acted like I, who chose to remain celebate, would multiply like hamsters and to masturbate, and I did have to masturbate and had a dream about it.

7:29 AM

Christina Barrett: That was after I stomped my foot a little.

7:29 AM

Christina Barrett: They irritate me, so I just live with their nonsense.

7:29 AM

Coach: i see. so the messages are pretty vulgar then it sounds like.

7:30 AM

Coach: how does he message you? like on instagram or Facebook or something?

7:30 AM

Christina Barrett: Yea.. he thinks that Ellen sexually assaulted me in naughty nasty thoughts.

7:30 AM

Christina Barrett: Not often, but he's posted on some of my blogs I've had.

7:30 AM

Coach: is there a way to block him and his messages?

7:30 AM

Christina Barrett: They also got mad when I hit the wall while I had an interest in meeting Tim Burton and went online about him.

7:30 AM

Coach: okay...

7:30 AM

Christina Barrett: No, I want to put him in his place with me and ignore him myself. I live with him.

7:31 AM

Coach: okay. how do you see yourself putting him in his place?

7:31 AM

Christina Barrett: I dunno, I just avoid him and put up with his immaturity. He wants me not to be attractive and good at anything in life.

7:32 AM

Christina Barrett: He doesn't care about his kids anymore than himself. That's why.

7:32 AM

Coach: okay. do you think he does it because he knows it annoys you?

7:32 AM

Christina Barrett: Yes. That might be the simple answer, but I think it's because he wants to act like he's punishing me.

7:32 AM

Christina Barrett: I don't know about my aunt coming over, I feel kinda stimulated and like crying.

7:32 AM

Christina Barrett: She's older than my mom.

7:33 AM

Christina Barrett: My parents are different racially|ethnically.

7:33 AM

Christina Barrett: He is acting like I need to go back and be an immature dependent of someone else in a bad way.

7:33 AM

Coach: okay. there is nothing wrong with crying. its healthy.

7:33 AM

Christina Barrett: I know.

7:33 AM

Coach: have you ever thought about moving out so you are not around him so often?

7:34 AM

Christina Barrett: Unfortunately, I found in college no one gave a care about me.

7:34 AM

Christina Barrett: Like, I wanted to live with my parents cuz I was thankful for them.

7:34 AM

Christina Barrett: They were supposed to be split up.

7:34 AM

Coach: sure...

7:34 AM

Christina Barrett: But the hurricane came.

7:34 AM

Coach: okay...

7:34 AM

Christina Barrett: I think it's my dad being mean my mom hates.

7:35 AM

Christina Barrett: My dad is kinda retarded, his parents think so.

7:35 AM

Christina Barrett: He is from PA and he just keeps calculating the morality of things as far as like a game goes. He doesn't consider when there's a problem.

7:35 AM

Coach: i see...

7:35 AM

Christina Barrett: He just says everything should seem normal.

7:36 AM

Christina Barrett: But I was normal, then he wanted to like molest|rape me.

7:36 AM

Christina Barrett: As a tot.

7:36 AM

Christina Barrett: I feel it.

7:36 AM

Christina Barrett: He is upset cuz I don't wanna have sex with him, I know it.

7:36 AM

Coach: i see...did anything ever happen? did her do that when you were younger?

7:37 AM

Christina Barrett: No, he just didnt

7:37 AM

Christina Barrett: seem right.

7:37 AM

Christina Barrett: Like, I was always excited to see him, but I didn't like him sexually.

7:37 AM

Coach: right. that makes sense.

7:37 AM

Christina Barrett: Probably cuz of being more than one ethnicity.

7:37 AM

Coach: have you told your therpaist this?

7:37 AM

Christina Barrett: I think so;

7:38 AM

Coach: or because he is your dad. thats not normal.

7:38 AM

Coach: you are not sure you told them?

7:38 AM

Christina Barrett: My dad doesn't seem emotional like normal.

7:38 AM

Christina Barrett: I did tell her that I was uncomfortable and about sex with my dad.

7:38 AM

Coach: okay. good. what did she say about that?

7:38 AM

Christina Barrett: But that's just a reason for him to be mean to me.

7:39 AM

Christina Barrett: She just thinks he's alright.

7:39 AM

Christina Barrett: My brother wasn't as good as me.

7:39 AM

Coach: that is not right at all and that is no reason to be mean to you.

7:39 AM

Christina Barrett: So, now, my life is so trashy.

7:39 AM

Christina Barrett: But he just acts mean in private or with my family.

7:39 AM

Christina Barrett: He doesn't do much that's technically an illegal law.

7:39 AM

Coach: what he is doing sounds like it could be sexual harassment.

7:39 AM

Christina Barrett: You'd just say that he was acting funny around his family.

7:40 AM

Christina Barrett: My mom was like that, too, always watching me and not having me look how I like.

7:40 AM

Christina Barrett: I am just worried about what more could happen.

7:40 AM

Christina Barrett: I think my therapist, who I don't wanna leave now, is special in family and kids.

7:41 AM

Coach: okay. i am glad you like your therapist.

7:41 AM

Coach: have you ever heard of RAINN?

7:41 AM

Christina Barrett: No..

7:41 AM

Coach: RAINN is a safe place to go for more information and help for victims of rape or abuse. You can chat 24/7 athttp://www.rainn.org

7:41 AM

Coach: now i know you were not a victim of rape.

7:41 AM

Coach: but they may be able to help you find ways to help with your dad.

7:42 AM

Christina Barrett: Yes, for the future.

7:42 AM

Christina Barrett: I am calmed down but feel bad, and I feel in danger with my dad acting like I should be treated like I'm punished all the time, a racist ******.

7:42 AM

Coach: right. and they could help you find legal advice too if what he is doing is sexual harassment.

7:42 AM

Coach: if you feel in danger then you need to get out of that house.

7:42 AM

Christina Barrett: Yes, I don't feel right in the head, I could make a mistake that I don't know is wrong. It's his fault.

7:42 AM

Coach: its not good to stay there.

7:43 AM

Christina Barrett: Yes, I watch Forensic Files.

7:43 AM

Coach: okay...

7:43 AM

Coach: do you have some place you could go?

7:43 AM

Christina Barrett: I know, I was gonna move, but my family said to get used to living more 1st. I'm not sure..

7:43 AM

Christina Barrett: I was told I had to take a break and go home from college to rest. I can't work, yet. I am a singer..

7:43 AM

Christina Barrett: Um, I dunno.

7:43 AM

Coach: it sounds to me like they just want to keep you there and that would not be good for you.

7:43 AM

Christina Barrett: Um I almost got a secretary job in Miami.

7:44 AM

Christina Barrett: But I said no.

7:44 AM

Coach: if you check out 211.org you can find referrals for places to stay.

7:44 AM

Christina Barrett: I asked my parents.

7:44 AM

Coach: okay...

7:44 AM

Christina Barrett: Okay, thanks!

7:44 AM

Coach: you are very welcome.

7:44 AM

Christina Barrett: I need to think more on the moving out bit. I just try to ignore my parents and am fine. I do wanna move out to some place other than Orlando but kinda enjoy Disney World.

7:44 AM

Coach: i understand.

7:44 AM

Christina Barrett: I guess I should talk online to stay in check with how I act with my parents or the other sites.

7:45 AM

Christina Barrett: A home is a permanent thing.

7:45 AM

Christina Barrett: I just happen to live in the garage.

7:45 AM

Christina Barrett: No money for a kitchen in here.

7:45 AM

Christina Barrett: Even the door is all closed off, so it's just 4 walls.

7:45 AM

Coach: right. you could always get an apartment to start off with.

7:45 AM

Coach: i see...

7:46 AM

Coach: but you are able to leave right?

7:46 AM

Christina Barrett: Yes, my plan, but I know all the cases on Forensic Files are people getting killed in apartments who go to bars, which I wanted to go out.

7:46 AM

Coach: okay...

7:46 AM

Christina Barrett: No, I have schizophrenia and am dealing with meds that make me tired, but I do wanna move out eventually. I don't know why I'm here, can't put my finger on it, maybe my sickly slight obesity.

7:46 AM

Christina Barrett: I don't drink, though.

7:47 AM

Coach: okay...

7:47 AM

Christina Barrett: I never got in trouble in public but in school.

7:47 AM

Coach: in school you got in trouble?

7:47 AM

Christina Barrett: My parents don't drink, but my dad had an abusive father.

7:47 AM

Coach: oh i see...

7:47 AM

Christina Barrett: I kicked some seats, but they didn't tell me why and pretended it was for using the bathroom.

7:48 AM

Coach: ah, i see...

7:48 AM

Christina Barrett: The people bothered me 1st a lot.

7:48 AM

Christina Barrett: But it was in the way they laughed and how the teacher talked.

7:48 AM

Christina Barrett: I ran for guidance sometime before during class.

7:48 AM

Coach: sure, i can understand that.

7:48 AM

Christina Barrett: Yea, it was just sorta in fun but the teacher didn't say anything. I just got sent to someone else. I think she was racist, saw my eyebrows weren't plucked or something.

7:49 AM

Coach: hmm...

7:49 AM

Christina Barrett: I even talked to her online. I took voice from her awhile and she took me off.

7:50 AM

Christina Barrett: Then I got back on meds and use it to get ssi and ebt money.

7:51 AM

Coach: alright...

7:51 AM

Christina Barrett: So, ask the RAINN @ my dad and what he might do?

7:51 AM

Christina Barrett: You helped me sort out my thoughts. I'm worried my plan, which I got mad during, would not work. I think they just overreact to everything. They are wrong to do these weird things to me.

7:51 AM

Coach: yeah. they can help with how to proceed with getting him to stop.

7:52 AM

Coach: i would agree. they should not be doing those weird things to you at all.

7:52 AM

Coach: i am glad you came here to sort things out.

7:52 AM

Christina Barrett: They act like weird. Thanks!

7:52 AM

Coach: you are very welcome!

7:53 AM

Christina Barrett: I guess I can go now and will come back probably. I've been a bit too happy. It's funny, I really try to live my life and then things come up. I'm not bad, I never start a problem, never.

7:53 AM

Christina Barrett: I can't be punished a lot for like doing something by accident!

7:53 AM

Coach: i believe you. we all have those times where we need to talk.

7:54 AM

Coach: i agree. if it was an accident you didnt mean to do it.

7:54 AM

Christina Barrett: Like, 1 little thing, and I'm not as good as before to them.

7:54 AM

Coach: i am sorry they do that to you. i know that must be hard.

7:54 AM

Christina Barrett: I know! but they keep attacking me with their attitude and act like they didn't do it! That sounds like they said their live is not worth it.

7:55 AM

Christina Barrett: It's been like 17 years.

7:55 AM

Christina Barrett: How selfish and greedy my dad is.

7:55 AM

Coach: i understand. that is something i would talk to your thearapist about too.

7:55 AM

Christina Barrett: He's a nice guy, just racist.

7:55 AM

Coach: i understand.

7:55 AM

Christina Barrett: OK

7:55 AM

Christina Barrett: I did. I think she responded. She acted like it was important to know cuz it was like dangerous and stupid.

7:56 AM

Coach: well be sure to bring it up again. especially since it is still going on.

7:56 AM

Christina Barrett: OK

7:57 AM

Christina Barrett: Anything else for now? I'm getting a bit tired.

7:57 AM

Christina Barrett: I don't know what else to talk about but feel this was partially very beneficial.

7:57 AM

Coach: no, if you need to get some rest, go for it.

7:57 AM

Christina Barrett: Yea, I wasn't able to sleep this night.

7:57 AM

Coach: i am glad it was helpful.

7:57 AM

Christina Barrett: You know..

7:58 AM

Christina Barrett: ..just my family seems to think I'm bad.

7:58 AM

Coach: well then go ahead and try to get some sleep. i know you must be tired.

7:58 AM

Christina Barrett: In public, no one has a problem with me, and I just am nice.

7:58 AM

Coach: i understand.

7:58 AM

Christina Barrett: OK.. thanks, I'll be back some other time.

7:58 AM

Coach: alright. have a great rest of your day!

7:58 AM

Christina Barrett: Thanks so much you were so helpful! :)

7:58 AM

Christina Barrett: Bye!

7:58 AM

Coach: bye!

Something Good

If you're worried about a good person, know that they also attack other attackers, leaving you wrong.

So, whattaya do?

When someone is lodging shit in your head?

Found Something

It's okay to do something big and self-directed for someone else but not me.

In General

If checking my every thought seems important, it's not.  I'm very good.

Not the Way of the South

People discriminate and say you're shit because of what you want in comparison to your age, but everyone needs a chance to achieve something worthy.

Stress

That someone would just marry young and never speak to me when I'm not supposed to think about being like a date friend.  It's very possible I not marry.

These boots weren't made for nothin'.
And I say that they'll do.
One'a these days these boots aren't gonna
Be at Wal-Mart online for you

link

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People keep blaming others these days. They think if their life is messed up that the rest of the universe is derandomized and the good people deserve to mess up, too. Then, you find out, they aren't really bad.

I'm sick of singing alone.

I may mess up, and the priest seemed mad I did.

What I Ended up Doing

There was a girl named Christina Barrett, and she loved a singer named Josh Groban, as did others, including the fortune teller Brunhilda.

Christina saw what she made out to be a boy in the distance with blonde hair and blue eyes, like her golden curls and bright blue eyes.  He was quite a quirky fellow to behold and she felt strong when he put his hands around her waist.  He tried to walk with his hand on her, but Christing removed herself.

She was in a yellow dress with white petticoats and underdress.

She walked alone on the sand of central-northeastern Florida.  She had her boots on, which did not fill nor soak up with the saltwater.

There was a fair going along, and she went and met a lady named Sarah Brightman she knew, also a singer.

In the end, she bought a CD by Charlotte Church and a book she found on Celine Dion.

She also won a trip to see some singers peform in Japan: Hayley Westenra and Sarah Brightman.  She really liked Hayley Westenra, as well.  She hoped to meet her at a meet and greet, but she toured so heavily she figured she wouldn't have the chance.

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How Many HAMburgers am I?

I made frozen 1s at home for like 2 or 3 years, as well as homemade pizza and things.  Thing is I put spices on it.

Worried

Out, I didn't have junk food, but home I had part of a huge chocolate cake I got @ the grocery store.

I'm still not tired of hearing myself sing.  Back to bed?  Only to dream of what I can accomplish when I wake up without further interruption?

Me

Instagram

Vine

Hey

If Charlotte Church gets to sing with you why not me and more her?  I wasn't a tired ol' hoss.  I was always awake and caring and prepped!  So is she..

Me

Instagram

Vine

Frik

I just m********ed.

My dad.  I can't get rid of that hungry feeling.  I went for weeks without it.  I guess someone did something.  I guess you can arouse me with my feet on the ground.

Should..

All the pretty Asian ladies have *** with my dad?

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Why..

..are adults in their late late 20s or 30s or eary 40s learning basic things babies learn, like to think before they act?

The Biggest Mistake of Today's Kids

You can't fix everything immediately.

For us, that means cooling off before we do something irresponsible.

All I Can Say

Is I aim.

In the living room, I just told my dad he was upsetting me .. I just didn't want anything to happen.

I stomped my foot as I left, so what?  That's why he did what he did.. joked around about me.

I went crazy later in my room.  I had to be given a way to think it off.

Not Glad

I even TOLD dad
That I was mad
Nothing to help me he had

Don't put me away
I'm here awhile to stay
What happened to my day
I don't understand the good of learning this way

I'm not altogether ashamed
Feel like what I did was okay claimed
I'll try not to get mad and feel framed

I think this could work
It was just a quirk

It's hard to let go
My heart is like snow

My ear

It feels a little inflamed inside, like pressure.

I know what it is.

That guy is mad at me.

I think I damaged my brain but didn't actually hit it.

I don't want anything about the girl over me with others.

You know what.

My therapist did not fix my problems, but my psychiatrist is slightly sane.

What did I do wrong?

I was uncomfortable talking about Bella.. and bringing up her mom.  I said that most people seemed to be thinking that but guess maybe it hit too hard when I mentioned her mom.  I didn't think it would before, didn't think of anything like that.  So, you think I meant it in that way, but I didn't, so I dunno.  She just seems a bit overly ecstatic for her youngest daughter, partially cuz she dyes her hair, probably regrets not tendering it to be lighter as she grew up.  My parents made mine black.  I don't like that, that's their fun, not mine.  My kids, I don't know that I'd want their hair to be white cuz it seems like a false promise of good to come.  I used to, though.  And I'm not like oh the youngest should have white hair or something.  Ugh!  Time for a walk?

I noticed

a composer made a blonde violinist feel better that the solo singer is blonde.

Why before was everything about "what" you did and now it's about what your parents did and if your hair was ever white?

"Music"

Loyola UNO MTO Songs I Know





Girl I Remember, Dodi Nolan (with bangs)

If you took down what I earn

Why does that just happen to me?  Racism.  I won't accept that aspect.

Problem

So, Bella Thorne's mom is celebrating thinking I deserve nothing to make me look like a fool rather than just smile about her daughter?

I didn't do it, I just posted it on my blog, so I'm not bad.  It's not a big deal, but she's the 1 who thinks it.  Anyway, I bet it's also going around now with the pathetic people I won't date.

Me Playing

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Up

I slept for 8 or 9 hours.  I start taking the bus now rather than disability door service.  Gotta sleep again..

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New Pictures of Me

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I thought you whites knew everything about being Asian.

IMDb member since May 2014

You act like it. So do blacks.

Now, you are jealous? You don't know anything about race?

And yes that's me pictured.

A REAL IMMORTAL GODDESS

Kids

I dunno, there's 3 boys so far who are really attractive who I might have a chance with, 1 is ***, 1 seems like a hermit, and the other I'm just worried about past "vows" not staying.

And I am poly******, so welcome Bella.

Weird

You think I have to have everything perfect or I will be upset or squeamish.

Well, it was kinda a big thing to think.  I am not asking for attention for my being given the equal opportunity, but I expect to make a couple friends.  Go worship someone who "took the right path" like Bella.  Maybe, we were all pretty kids, too, but she seemed more focused on being like meek or something.  I can't believe, though, how dramatic her transformation was from being a baby.  It's too bad they didn't try and keep her hair that light like her skin.  I dunno, though, some girls like being able to have dark hair and dye it like they were born with it to show off but still feel the drama of having "dark" hair.  What should we do?

Also, some people just look pretty but are just "full of" "air."  It was like the last minute touch, not a part of them.

So, explain

Ellen just gets mad easily to look dramatic, no reason to find out?

You all can't do

what ya'll cant do.  Go around and make everything about me being upset that you think is bad to make me upset and it won't be right.  Get cornered and be poked at!

i spy

with my eye
a fly

i'll try
and not cry

i'll reply
go up the sky

Weird

That's "literally" happening to Bella Thorne that other people just aren't jealous of?  And why would someone like me be a bad guy?  I never grew up in check like that.  Ya'll just jealous.  I've already gone on Facebook and am finding new things.  }:D  I know I can talk to someone and not feel constantly attacked.  I'm not the sole winner.  I always was a sharer.  Wanna real duel?  It won't be me.  What have I got?  I got things I like, and then there's such a thing as following me around to each thing so that I feel belittled and not bi and tri friended.

Let me bridge out after all that thoguht of all us and think of what's going on.  The other people did this to me to be in trouble.  I'm following the messages of others like I'm counting the cars on a train.  I've done that before, too.

Hm, what can we do for Bella Thorne?  She eats like crazy, fast food, and she exercises now each day.  Try things like smoothies.. soup!  Those will make you beautiful!  See, I just did it.  I always am into not being the only 1.

So, is this message thing supposed to feel like it includes a punishment?  No, it's just someone else who has to hold their own.

I don't need to bide my time.

I probably need to exercise again.

Also, you experimenters aren't in for the better good if you disapprove of me really talking to people who care about me in this situation, singers with heritage in Europe.

How would you feel..

if just 1 or 2 people wanted all your "gifts" from you?

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I think marriage is different than looking for a civil partnership. It is different from friendship and motherly love.

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Off the road & back home again. None of the lights, stages, or fans are around. I have to be ok just being Lindsey :) pic.twitter.com/lw06I5GSyt
— Lindsey Stirling (@LindseyStirling) July 29, 2014

Another lose person in check.

You can't say that you watch people and be mean to me on purpose instead.  Like, someone else is more pampered, so pretend that's what it is when you hurt me, like I just don't need pampered so you try to knock the light outta my eyes for ^something I ^said^^.

How She'd Say It, in My Defense

"How can he put someone, that other girl, over me?"

It's not safe to hang out.  Why tell me someone is better?  We're all the same.  What's the point in saying I'm worse than other people, what's the point as in a literal question?  I mean, how can 1 person be better than another?  I'm not some weirdo, neither.  I don't say I'm better to hurt people.  Did my statement not make sense to anyone?  I hope what I've said is okay.  It's not worth important people's read, though..

If you easily think about this 1..

..I see someone has it in their nature to throw away good relationships, any at all, using the whims of others in my life.  You don't do this to others.  My feeling is you are racist.  You blame me for things I did as a toddler, even.  You think I "don't go in" for my parents.  My dad doesn't want me to be as good as him, all proper and stuff.  My mom isn't even a mushy person.  I don't know what you're looking for here, but it makes no sense and you're not getting away with it.

I don't know what to do if no one listens.  Ellen is a threat to anyone nice to me.  Can we just overlook this?  I overlook a lot..

About "going in" again, you know it wouldn't be stupid mushy shit, you'd hold your own.  My parents look like they want me to feel like I'm stupid and stimulated by their genes being different.

BIG QUESTION

Why do you have to put Bella and I in an order and knock me down just cuz you met her or believe I am not that nice?  Most people agree outwardly I am.  I don't want to overshadow people.  I just want to be the best person I can be.  That includes feeling good feelings and doing stuff.  Everyone should figure this out for themselves.

May I ask you to stop

making my lady feel like hurting me?

They are saying I have something and I gotta give it over.  No one cares about just 1 person's dreams.

When you say that..

..You can't just say some innocent person is not the most ***y.  If someone is going to extreme wrong means means they are that in the spoiled sense.

Oh wow..

..like she already knows what the world does for her is a joke.  They set her up like no one else in the world is as ***y as she is.

I'm fed up

with this

"you've got a queen but you are a joker"
— bella thorne (@bellathorne) July 29, 2014

I want to follow this girl for her successes, not run into things like this. I think I am mad at her and not to whom she gets to allude to. She probably doesn't like doing this. She keeps getting rowdy and misses the point of doing anything in this.

Check my story.

I updated it, if you read it..

Problem

Ellen does treat Bella like a brat or she made others do it.  She had the feeling, but she didn't act upon it.  Bella has an obsessive compulsive trait of thinking there can only be 1 perfect person in the world.

and

it does not matter to you 1 iota what I'm thinking, you're like a machine that infiltrates hatred into my body.  You all decided to do it.

So, what?

It's Ellen and no one else or everyone else but not Ellen though the later will not happen?

It doesn't matter "what" I did.  In all honestly, only some certain kind of person would sit there and be mad at what someone did and not what they think now.

Let me insert this argument, again. I was cursing about the noises in my room and had to curse at my dad on my blog cuz I have no escape but so I won't curse at Ellen, though I slipped and apologized.  I was writing a lot, and she put the noises there.

Ugh, will you stop, will you??

I think you've already made your point known to a vast majority of others.

All Right!

So, disciplining someone else is still a mean joke about me?  Not for all readers, but some will be interested in the truth.