not perfect but worth 4/5
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Thursday, July 31, 2014
I don't get it.
So, what got you good was singing before the whole world, whereas I cannot do it at all anywhere? Like, you get to sing with Josh Groban or something like that? I know Charlotte Church also sings with him.. So, I mean anyone who "gets" to do some things like that. I guess I'm spoiled cuz I hope to be great enough to. But I want to be great with experience. I almost got a piano gig but turned it down.
I Am the Exploiter
exploiter
I know that taking a break from singing for too long can ruin your voice, even moving somewhere else if you're that upset.
I know that taking a break from singing for too long can ruin your voice, even moving somewhere else if you're that upset.
So, guess what?
I found that singing if you don't sound exactly like your nightmare it ain't that bad! I AM STRONG CUZ I HAVE 2 BIG SHOULDERS
I found out.
My dad and someone else are trying to make me m******** by acting perverted to me. I don't have to be my dad if his sisters are the opposite, not in your wildest dreams will I be that degenerate.
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Could be 1/5 - but the 2nd 3rd of my concert tour - to prove what I can do
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Kids! What's a matta with kids!
If you have kids with someone else, how can you have more with another? The families fight.
Update
About Me
#1 Things in My Life
1-Josh Groban
2-Ellen DeGeneres
3-Disney World Main Street Electrical Parade
4-My Old Singing Voice
#1 Things in My Life
1-Josh Groban
2-Ellen DeGeneres
3-Disney World Main Street Electrical Parade
4-My Old Singing Voice
Loved This-
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Ya right.
Charlotte Church gets easily "mad" or defensive, if that's an okay replacement term, don't mean anything bad unless you think me saying anything like this is bad.
May I ask what made you jump? Not Charlotte Church. All you singers out there who are great but could be greater if you waited or practiced more since getting famous? You don't embody the spirit of what was important in singing itself, same concerns with Sarah Brightman, supposedly the greatest, but she's not greater than all the other singers. She is great, but many people would even argue me that to a moot point.
Ya right.
Charlotte Church gets easily "mad" or defensive, if that's an okay replacement term, don't mean anything bad unless you think me saying anything like this is bad.
May I ask what made you jump? Not Charlotte Church. All you singers out there who are great but could be greater if you waited or practiced more since getting famous? You don't embody the spirit of what was important in singing itself, same concerns with Sarah Brightman, supposedly the greatest, but she's not greater than all the other singers. She is great, but many people would even argue me that to a moot point.
TheHopeLine
Coach: Thanks for chatting with us ... what is going on that we might help you with?
7:13 AM
Coach: are you there?
7:14 AM
Christina Barrett: yes
7:14 AM
Coach: How are you this morning?
7:14 AM
Christina Barrett: Well, I just stomped my foot as I felt and stormed sorta to my room. My dad acted like something was really wrong.
7:14 AM
Coach: okay...
7:14 AM
Christina Barrett: I was doing sorta okay. I can't get rid of this feeling in my private that's like stimulated too much or something.
7:15 AM
Coach: alright...
7:15 AM
Christina Barrett: I was just thinking to myself in the room getting some food, and now everyone is acting like i'm all bad.
7:15 AM
Coach: i see...
7:15 AM
Christina Barrett: They keep acting like I can't feel anything right.
7:15 AM
Christina Barrett: I feel I want to tell on my dad so someone can straighten out the comfort in my life.
7:15 AM
Coach: tell on your dad for what?
7:16 AM
Christina Barrett: Also, my aunt will be here for 4 days supposedly for my mom. I want to tell on my dad for sending me secret messages that hurt me and then acting weird around me for real.
7:16 AM
Coach: well, i can understand that for sure.
7:16 AM
Christina Barrett: Sometime, I tend to get upset cuz how mean they are and digging into my thoughts.
7:16 AM
Christina Barrett: They didn't do that growing up, so it's like all of a sudden I have no chance.
7:16 AM
Coach: the messages are mean?
7:16 AM
Christina Barrett: Yes.
7:17 AM
Christina Barrett: Like, I don't remember the basic 1s, I can't think.
7:17 AM
Christina Barrett: They start dissing important things in my life now cuza it.
7:17 AM
Coach: okay...
7:17 AM
Christina Barrett: I don't know what to do or who to tell on. I saw my therapist yesterday and made this apparent.
7:17 AM
Coach: what did your therapist say about all this?
7:17 AM
Christina Barrett: They started it.
7:17 AM
Christina Barrett: Nothing.
7:17 AM
Coach: oh really. thats not good.
7:18 AM
Christina Barrett: She just is there to talk to me, doesn't know about my family.
7:18 AM
Christina Barrett: She is nice, but that's all, someone to tell me how to stay out of being locked up.
7:18 AM
Coach: hmm. i see...
7:18 AM
Christina Barrett: She can't fix my dad. She has no idea how I can get by in any complex way, just that I shouldn't be getting mad I think.
7:18 AM
Christina Barrett: But they won't stop. It's like they can't matter to me.
7:18 AM
Coach: you have every right to get mad.
7:18 AM
Coach: its okay to feel that way.
7:18 AM
Christina Barrett: My aunt might act weird.
7:19 AM
Christina Barrett: I think my favorite show ends on Sunday and we're supposed to have a turkey dinner.
7:19 AM
Christina Barrett: She'll be here until then..
7:19 AM
Coach: okay...
7:19 AM
Christina Barrett: She invited herself to help out with my mom supposedly.
7:19 AM
Coach: whats the matter with your mom?
7:20 AM
Christina Barrett: She might have breast cancer. They just took out something like a freckle that was growing cancer behind 1 eye. She said she got glasses from a car accident.
7:20 AM
Christina Barrett: She stopped eating meat.
7:20 AM
Christina Barrett: Much.. but I think she eats more chicken than me.
7:20 AM
Christina Barrett: She's a physical person.
7:21 AM
Coach: okay...
7:23 AM
Coach: what can i do to help?
7:24 AM
Christina Barrett: I find it an insult that my aunt is coming and also think something about Ellen DeGeneres was involved, like she communicates with my parents and other people they know of.
7:24 AM
Coach: why is it an insult that your aunt is coming?
7:25 AM
Christina Barrett: What's going on is she'll be available in a hotel. My aunt won't make it as special that my favorite show ends this weekend I think.. I am not a whiner, but I think that's why she's coming.
7:25 AM
Christina Barrett: It was something big for me, and I don't find my dad's shit funny.
7:25 AM
Coach: because you show is ending?
7:25 AM
Christina Barrett: Yes.
7:25 AM
Coach: what show is ending?
7:25 AM
Christina Barrett: Also because Ellen is involved in all this crap to me.
7:25 AM
Christina Barrett: Rising Star.. I love voting and even Tweet like the judges.
7:26 AM
Coach: whay makes you think Ellen is involved?
7:26 AM
Coach: oh cool. that is a pretty good show.
7:26 AM
Christina Barrett: Because I figured it out, like I could tell she knew stuff about me.
7:26 AM
Christina Barrett: Yea, I like Josh Groban..
7:26 AM
Christina Barrett: My aunt visiting won't really ruin it, but I don't want their shit.
7:26 AM
Coach: i understand.
7:26 AM
Coach: so no one else knows about your dad's messages?
7:26 AM
Christina Barrett: What about our turkey dinner? My aunt doesn't care about my mom. She's supposedly here worried about my mom, but 4 days?
7:27 AM
Christina Barrett: No, I post them on my blog.
7:27 AM
Christina Barrett: I get really fed up having to do that.
7:27 AM
Coach: oh really. do you think that is why he acts weird around you. does he know you do that?
7:27 AM
Christina Barrett: I'm so hungry, we don't want my aunt eating all my food.
7:27 AM
Coach: alright...
7:28 AM
Christina Barrett: Yes, but he doesn't talk to me about it online. My shit blog doesn't allow comments, but my regular 1 does, and I have a free forum.
7:28 AM
Coach: okay. what kind of messages does he send you?
7:29 AM
Christina Barrett: He acted like I, who chose to remain celebate, would multiply like hamsters and to masturbate, and I did have to masturbate and had a dream about it.
7:29 AM
Christina Barrett: That was after I stomped my foot a little.
7:29 AM
Christina Barrett: They irritate me, so I just live with their nonsense.
7:29 AM
Coach: i see. so the messages are pretty vulgar then it sounds like.
7:30 AM
Coach: how does he message you? like on instagram or Facebook or something?
7:30 AM
Christina Barrett: Yea.. he thinks that Ellen sexually assaulted me in naughty nasty thoughts.
7:30 AM
Christina Barrett: Not often, but he's posted on some of my blogs I've had.
7:30 AM
Coach: is there a way to block him and his messages?
7:30 AM
Christina Barrett: They also got mad when I hit the wall while I had an interest in meeting Tim Burton and went online about him.
7:30 AM
Coach: okay...
7:30 AM
Christina Barrett: No, I want to put him in his place with me and ignore him myself. I live with him.
7:31 AM
Coach: okay. how do you see yourself putting him in his place?
7:31 AM
Christina Barrett: I dunno, I just avoid him and put up with his immaturity. He wants me not to be attractive and good at anything in life.
7:32 AM
Christina Barrett: He doesn't care about his kids anymore than himself. That's why.
7:32 AM
Coach: okay. do you think he does it because he knows it annoys you?
7:32 AM
Christina Barrett: Yes. That might be the simple answer, but I think it's because he wants to act like he's punishing me.
7:32 AM
Christina Barrett: I don't know about my aunt coming over, I feel kinda stimulated and like crying.
7:32 AM
Christina Barrett: She's older than my mom.
7:33 AM
Christina Barrett: My parents are different racially|ethnically.
7:33 AM
Christina Barrett: He is acting like I need to go back and be an immature dependent of someone else in a bad way.
7:33 AM
Coach: okay. there is nothing wrong with crying. its healthy.
7:33 AM
Christina Barrett: I know.
7:33 AM
Coach: have you ever thought about moving out so you are not around him so often?
7:34 AM
Christina Barrett: Unfortunately, I found in college no one gave a care about me.
7:34 AM
Christina Barrett: Like, I wanted to live with my parents cuz I was thankful for them.
7:34 AM
Christina Barrett: They were supposed to be split up.
7:34 AM
Coach: sure...
7:34 AM
Christina Barrett: But the hurricane came.
7:34 AM
Coach: okay...
7:34 AM
Christina Barrett: I think it's my dad being mean my mom hates.
7:35 AM
Christina Barrett: My dad is kinda retarded, his parents think so.
7:35 AM
Christina Barrett: He is from PA and he just keeps calculating the morality of things as far as like a game goes. He doesn't consider when there's a problem.
7:35 AM
Coach: i see...
7:35 AM
Christina Barrett: He just says everything should seem normal.
7:36 AM
Christina Barrett: But I was normal, then he wanted to like molest|rape me.
7:36 AM
Christina Barrett: As a tot.
7:36 AM
Christina Barrett: I feel it.
7:36 AM
Christina Barrett: He is upset cuz I don't wanna have sex with him, I know it.
7:37 AM
Christina Barrett: No, he just didnt
7:37 AM
Christina Barrett: seem right.
7:37 AM
Christina Barrett: Like, I was always excited to see him, but I didn't like him sexually.
7:37 AM
Coach: right. that makes sense.
7:37 AM
Christina Barrett: Probably cuz of being more than one ethnicity.
7:37 AM
Coach: have you told your therpaist this?
7:37 AM
Christina Barrett: I think so;
7:38 AM
Coach: or because he is your dad. thats not normal.
7:38 AM
Coach: you are not sure you told them?
7:38 AM
Christina Barrett: My dad doesn't seem emotional like normal.
7:38 AM
Christina Barrett: I did tell her that I was uncomfortable and about sex with my dad.
7:38 AM
Coach: okay. good. what did she say about that?
7:38 AM
Christina Barrett: But that's just a reason for him to be mean to me.
7:39 AM
Christina Barrett: She just thinks he's alright.
7:39 AM
Christina Barrett: My brother wasn't as good as me.
7:39 AM
Coach: that is not right at all and that is no reason to be mean to you.
7:39 AM
Christina Barrett: So, now, my life is so trashy.
7:39 AM
Christina Barrett: But he just acts mean in private or with my family.
7:39 AM
Christina Barrett: He doesn't do much that's technically an illegal law.
7:39 AM
Coach: what he is doing sounds like it could be sexual harassment.
7:39 AM
Christina Barrett: You'd just say that he was acting funny around his family.
7:40 AM
Christina Barrett: My mom was like that, too, always watching me and not having me look how I like.
7:40 AM
Christina Barrett: I am just worried about what more could happen.
7:40 AM
Christina Barrett: I think my therapist, who I don't wanna leave now, is special in family and kids.
7:41 AM
Coach: okay. i am glad you like your therapist.
7:41 AM
Coach: have you ever heard of RAINN?
7:41 AM
Christina Barrett: No..
7:41 AM
Coach: RAINN is a safe place to go for more information and help for victims of rape or abuse. You can chat 24/7 athttp://www.rainn.org
7:41 AM
Coach: now i know you were not a victim of rape.
7:41 AM
Coach: but they may be able to help you find ways to help with your dad.
7:42 AM
Christina Barrett: Yes, for the future.
7:42 AM
Christina Barrett: I am calmed down but feel bad, and I feel in danger with my dad acting like I should be treated like I'm punished all the time, a racist ******.
7:42 AM
Coach: right. and they could help you find legal advice too if what he is doing is sexual harassment.
7:42 AM
Coach: if you feel in danger then you need to get out of that house.
7:42 AM
Christina Barrett: Yes, I don't feel right in the head, I could make a mistake that I don't know is wrong. It's his fault.
7:42 AM
Coach: its not good to stay there.
7:43 AM
Christina Barrett: Yes, I watch Forensic Files.
7:43 AM
Coach: okay...
7:43 AM
Coach: do you have some place you could go?
7:43 AM
Christina Barrett: I know, I was gonna move, but my family said to get used to living more 1st. I'm not sure..
7:43 AM
Christina Barrett: I was told I had to take a break and go home from college to rest. I can't work, yet. I am a singer..
7:43 AM
Christina Barrett: Um, I dunno.
7:43 AM
Coach: it sounds to me like they just want to keep you there and that would not be good for you.
7:43 AM
Christina Barrett: Um I almost got a secretary job in Miami.
7:44 AM
Christina Barrett: But I said no.
7:44 AM
Christina Barrett: I asked my parents.
7:44 AM
Coach: okay...
7:44 AM
Christina Barrett: Okay, thanks!
7:44 AM
Coach: you are very welcome.
7:44 AM
Christina Barrett: I need to think more on the moving out bit. I just try to ignore my parents and am fine. I do wanna move out to some place other than Orlando but kinda enjoy Disney World.
7:44 AM
Coach: i understand.
7:44 AM
Christina Barrett: I guess I should talk online to stay in check with how I act with my parents or the other sites.
7:45 AM
Christina Barrett: A home is a permanent thing.
7:45 AM
Christina Barrett: I just happen to live in the garage.
7:45 AM
Christina Barrett: No money for a kitchen in here.
7:45 AM
Christina Barrett: Even the door is all closed off, so it's just 4 walls.
7:45 AM
Coach: right. you could always get an apartment to start off with.
7:45 AM
Coach: i see...
7:46 AM
Coach: but you are able to leave right?
7:46 AM
Christina Barrett: Yes, my plan, but I know all the cases on Forensic Files are people getting killed in apartments who go to bars, which I wanted to go out.
7:46 AM
Coach: okay...
7:46 AM
Christina Barrett: No, I have schizophrenia and am dealing with meds that make me tired, but I do wanna move out eventually. I don't know why I'm here, can't put my finger on it, maybe my sickly slight obesity.
7:46 AM
Christina Barrett: I don't drink, though.
7:47 AM
Coach: okay...
7:47 AM
Christina Barrett: I never got in trouble in public but in school.
7:47 AM
Coach: in school you got in trouble?
7:47 AM
Christina Barrett: My parents don't drink, but my dad had an abusive father.
7:47 AM
Coach: oh i see...
7:47 AM
Christina Barrett: I kicked some seats, but they didn't tell me why and pretended it was for using the bathroom.
7:48 AM
Coach: ah, i see...
7:48 AM
Christina Barrett: The people bothered me 1st a lot.
7:48 AM
Christina Barrett: But it was in the way they laughed and how the teacher talked.
7:48 AM
Christina Barrett: I ran for guidance sometime before during class.
7:48 AM
Coach: sure, i can understand that.
7:48 AM
Christina Barrett: Yea, it was just sorta in fun but the teacher didn't say anything. I just got sent to someone else. I think she was racist, saw my eyebrows weren't plucked or something.
7:49 AM
Coach: hmm...
7:49 AM
Christina Barrett: I even talked to her online. I took voice from her awhile and she took me off.
7:50 AM
Christina Barrett: Then I got back on meds and use it to get ssi and ebt money.
7:51 AM
Coach: alright...
7:51 AM
Christina Barrett: So, ask the RAINN @ my dad and what he might do?
7:51 AM
Christina Barrett: You helped me sort out my thoughts. I'm worried my plan, which I got mad during, would not work. I think they just overreact to everything. They are wrong to do these weird things to me.
7:51 AM
Coach: yeah. they can help with how to proceed with getting him to stop.
7:52 AM
Coach: i would agree. they should not be doing those weird things to you at all.
7:52 AM
Coach: i am glad you came here to sort things out.
7:52 AM
Christina Barrett: They act like weird. Thanks!
7:52 AM
Coach: you are very welcome!
7:53 AM
Christina Barrett: I guess I can go now and will come back probably. I've been a bit too happy. It's funny, I really try to live my life and then things come up. I'm not bad, I never start a problem, never.
7:53 AM
Christina Barrett: I can't be punished a lot for like doing something by accident!
7:53 AM
Coach: i believe you. we all have those times where we need to talk.
7:54 AM
Coach: i agree. if it was an accident you didnt mean to do it.
7:54 AM
Christina Barrett: Like, 1 little thing, and I'm not as good as before to them.
7:54 AM
Coach: i am sorry they do that to you. i know that must be hard.
7:54 AM
Christina Barrett: I know! but they keep attacking me with their attitude and act like they didn't do it! That sounds like they said their live is not worth it.
7:55 AM
Christina Barrett: It's been like 17 years.
7:55 AM
Christina Barrett: How selfish and greedy my dad is.
7:55 AM
Coach: i understand. that is something i would talk to your thearapist about too.
7:55 AM
Christina Barrett: He's a nice guy, just racist.
7:55 AM
Coach: i understand.
7:55 AM
Christina Barrett: OK
7:55 AM
Christina Barrett: I did. I think she responded. She acted like it was important to know cuz it was like dangerous and stupid.
7:56 AM
Coach: well be sure to bring it up again. especially since it is still going on.
7:56 AM
Christina Barrett: OK
7:57 AM
Christina Barrett: Anything else for now? I'm getting a bit tired.
7:57 AM
Christina Barrett: I don't know what else to talk about but feel this was partially very beneficial.
7:57 AM
Coach: no, if you need to get some rest, go for it.
7:57 AM
Christina Barrett: Yea, I wasn't able to sleep this night.
7:57 AM
Coach: i am glad it was helpful.
7:57 AM
Christina Barrett: You know..
7:58 AM
Christina Barrett: ..just my family seems to think I'm bad.
7:58 AM
Coach: well then go ahead and try to get some sleep. i know you must be tired.
7:58 AM
Christina Barrett: In public, no one has a problem with me, and I just am nice.
7:58 AM
Coach: i understand.
7:58 AM
Christina Barrett: OK.. thanks, I'll be back some other time.
7:58 AM
Coach: alright. have a great rest of your day!
7:58 AM
Christina Barrett: Thanks so much you were so helpful! :)
7:58 AM
Christina Barrett: Bye!
7:58 AM
Coach: bye!
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