indians

Now

Ellen does not think like a real person but a toy cuz she's in LA.  She won't think through problems.  She just expects there to be none, and honey they're ain't as long as freedom of speech exists.

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The people here are agitated and on something.

It's made it hard to think and make my time here worth my services..

I know

you say I'm not racially friendly cuz yer really racist.

Good

Mental torture and not execution.

It's true.

After my class graduated, it was not about parental figures born 1961 and before, so it's not like that, now.  Problem!

More

What about Bella acting so cool and happy she's not in trouble?  I'm not in trouble.

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Who thinks Ellen is a hoax?

I said I don't wanna hear this fat, tacky lady from the mental hospital, she was huge and stupid on purpose. I don't wanna be turned into her for fun. She doesn't think. She thinks you just punish someone about something if something is a problem, and that's stupid as you just saw me indicate. It's too late, you gotta know this already, not wait for some stupid teens to grow up. I'm already 28.

Too Late

I'm less than perfect but wish I could help miserable people.  But they all think I'm stupid shit not worth a crap.

I saw what happened

to the idea of racially accepting nonwhites who display the right signs.  I caught Ellen, too, she'd ask, "The right signs of what?" or, "How stupid if no one knew what that meant?"  She doesn't agree!..

Afterthoughts

Exhibit A

There was a lady named Ellen age 55 with a child named Christina age 20.  She had a 2nd child age 10 named Bella.

Exhibit B

There was a lady named Ellen age 50 with a brother aged 60 with a child age 20.  Her child was age 10.

If the

DeGeneres's don't worry about the truth, I don't have much to worry about.

@ChloeGMoretz I think she'd like her, too. Chloe is from Georgia and NYC, and Bella is Latino and American and from SE FL.
— Christina Barrett (@ChrisAnnBarrett) August 14, 2014

Not Safe?

People in general do not agree with this, always talking about that girl when you talk to me..

@LauraBenanti -cows, chickens, pigs
— josh groban (@joshgroban) August 14, 2014

My hamster just said I was kinder to the girl than others.

I bring it up cuz it's brought up it might be traumatic for my biological brain-

Autistic Auntie?

Ellen thinks her point is something big the world knows, which does not mean she can say we're all shit.  She sees no one is like their full potential, what Johnny Depp now does.  That's not a reason to have a show.

That can't even be a reason for anything.  It's not a reason, period!  It's not a "reason."

Moreover

You treat me differently.  Stop acting like I'm Asian amid what's not already bullshit.  Have a freak out?

I'm not hurting you!  There is bullshit present.  No one is bullshit, things are, though, and you gotta know.

You insulted me.  Just get outta my life when you're gonna do that.  Quit threatening me for being good!  Are you crazy?

You know who you are..

..people like us are processing that Johnny Depp thinks we have something, not being famous, but you, you're famous.

I'm not pointing my finger at anyone.  Maybe I am, but I'll say I'm not.

What I Want to Say

is censored about someone's good character.

Post by The Ellen DeGeneres Show.

She doesn't like me.  She wants it to look like I have issues of other people being in my life than certain ones.

I don't think Josh Groban would|does, neither.  If you all love this girl go all and hurl at her.  No offense.  Quit wasting my life.  Not everyone agrees.  In fact, most people don't like ya'll..

No offense, I'm just saying.  I feel you've done something to me.  *Beep*  I get along well with others.  You are just so God damn jealous you gotta prove something else.  Why am I even here?  Where can I go where you won't be dissing my posts?  Why don't you go all drool over her posts?

Check out

the new way I follow on Twitter.

Problem

I will not accept that Ellen is punishing me by talking about Bella Thorne.  She thinks I'm shit if I don't realize it, but she won't admit it.  I don't wanna watch her show if it's about shit.  I didn't say anyone was shit.  I don't mean anyone is.

I don't mind her talking about Bella Thorne, but I feel she is just doing it to punish me, and I'm far too good and far too old to be punished for what I think and say.  This is not your classic example of a failure.  Who cares if I cursed about the shit that was done to me?  Does she deserve to be treated better if she did it?  Why worry if I said shit about her?  Didn't she do shit to me, also?  Didn't she keep on doing it and restarting it?  Whatever she says that she's right, the whole army of the world puts her in check thinking she's wrong.

Thank You

Twitter for the warm welcome.

Also

A new sanitizer holder with a tiny owl

Might

Not work, would have to if Ihad to be independent.

Pony

Bear workshop

More

@ Forever 21 like for the Ellen Show found another nice kinda hot pink tights and a pearly pink shirt, long sleeves, for Disney.  I checked Hallmark and found a tiny stuffed Beanie pink turtle keychain for my collection.  I got the only pony maybe I've seen with both wings and horn.

I used to work

At a school uniform store, could sell normal clothes again at a tiny kids clothes store @ the mall!  Looking for a part time worker.

Sorry

@ that special girl, but it seemed like a punishment..

You think @ the South

Being less substantial, but there's something weird @ Florida.. think @ Johnny Depo.

A Man

Chloe Moretz being on everything sacrificially.

A Man

Chloe Moretz being on everything sacrificially.

Instagram

Why would

a black person be the 1 to rat me out?  Should I hate all black people online?

Edit

Another Edit

Edit

http://christina-ann-1986.blogspot.com/2014/08/i-just-realized.html

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What order would you put career goal types to pick?

1) Actress - like Zoeey Deschanel in Elf of some other major aesthetic role of the times 
- - - which would include me posting my singing and dancing online 

(2) Organ 

(3) Producer|Director or Animator

I want to do organ, singing

but like I get so jealous of good actors then.

Why is there no

In Dulce Jubio on organ on iTunes?

What do you think

of people who are crazy about insulting you but don't want you to talk back?

Movie

I just ordered Elf with Zooey Deschanel.  $11 which includes shipping+handling, take a week maybe to get here.  Also waiting on stuff to spray on public toilets.

I just realized

Sarah Brightman acts like an old best friend who watched Andrew Lloyd Webber young.  She has old parents.  Anyway, the thing Sarah Brightman does is act sorta fat and tacky with a soft, girly voice.  My friend wondered why people like her parents better, and now people like Ellen DeGeneres support saying you are your parents so much and I disagree.

(I took down the original post I made on this topic.)

Edit: Also, sounds bewildered with big eyes open and I don't mean to be nasty to you 2 but like there's nothing there for you.

It's hard I keep editing this.  I'm looking into the nature of someone annoying to me who didn't answer me, who acts mean sometimes if you think about it.  You can think that of me, but it might not be true.  I have a freedom to talk about what is real, somehow, though.  The point is they seem similar.  I didn't say exactly no, but it's rather interesting.  It's like she wants to meet her.  Why not, then?  Let's get things going.  Everyone wants to have a turn.  LOL!

So, you can do that, though I don't think it healthy, but it's funny.

Another Edit

of that post

Edit

1st post of this day

Sorry, I forgot to be careful around people other than that girl and didn't realize the nature of my audience.

GOOD. NIGHT.

Have a nice sleep.

What's

so good @ being flippant @ your dyed hair like and flipping people thru life saying you're the only one who's more styled?  LOL?

Why not

be with people who like you and are generally nice?

I find people terribly prejudiced about people's backgrounds than what was promised about behavior getting you places.

Don't forget.

I'm not a racial mistake.

Did you know

racism drains energy?

People have said putting people in check is old and though acclaimed suggestive to be suggested but by me.  Now, looking at the parents compared to kids is important cuz so many kids were bad.  So, now, what they did was considered saintly foiling to others and now they get to be considered good like their parents.

They listen to adults putting some youth in check but not if a good youth notices.  (TV told me this.)

Some people are set up as adults

as kids.  Like me, too.

How can you base the hope of society

on the looney bin or mental hospital?  Autism and schizophrenics, bipolars, all the diseases.

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You think that a person is responsible for the existence of their race, like a disease? Are they the devil?

Well

I already know what Ellen wants to say.  I know people have different sides to them.  I drop out naturally.  And sorry about earlier, was trying to be factual tho not just blaming badly.

New Site

link

People have a tendency to have

French girls be more European and be like what what'd I do?

I am more fair in physique.

Even if I have dark hair and my skin is not like see through goo..

You can see how I build and withstand and what I can get from my parents.  I mean, I'm not that callous.  I'm not a slob without finesse.  It's like when people turn blonde when exist.  Like, Zooey Deschanel has blue eyes but dark hair.  She probably had light hair as a baby.  Maybe, her parents tendered it dark cuz she's not all French, so she'd seem more French, though a French person with lighter hair is still French.

My mom is short and thin, and like think of those short and thin Latin American girls.  They are fair.  Things like that exist.  They can get passed on or connected.  Probably, a dark person can have a fair and strong lady.

My skin is more colored but not like just gray or something.  In fact, it has flushes of most colors from orange to pink.  My hair is elegant.  When it was all dark, it was very straight.  It was very neat.

So, though dark hair, I am fairer than other people with dark hair.  They may be more like a European in heritage but does not simply make me less..  I am not incredibly dark and colorless.  I guess people who lead different lives are darker.  Being Asian does not make you automatically unfair.  My body is not normal and I do not fun around like I'm all callous and people need to feel sorry for me..  (That relates to another topic, this thinking.)

I'm enjoying my "dark" hair, but I'm dreaming it would be fair.  I might need to be more fair to improve myself, which does not involve dying my hair..

Twitter

No one's up? Going. Going. Gone.

— Christina Barrett (@ChrisAnnBarrett) August 12, 2014

Do you think

someone else is perfect and I'm not?  I'm sorry, but I didn't say who it was, but I guess you're thinking about that person.

Hate to Burst Your Bubble

But if your dream is to punish people for supposed minute attitudes, you'll be heavily punishing yourself.

I'm actually drinking a Coke.

I'm watching a show

about hammerheads in Florida.  There's a big daddy.

Why do you find

Floridians enemies?

I don't agree with

The Little Princess

I watched it with Shirley Temple, and why would the end be seeing someone you should already know?  I see the respectable old lady, Queen?, passed, too.

Sorry

I shoulda kept quiet.

I'm not wrong.

I even say sorry, but you make it hard for me.. put me up to all these things so I'll mess up some..

So

Bella waits until someone does something and uses it to her advantage.

Check

Ellen, it is a terrible burden, honestly from you, that I not feel good because of my ethnicity.

My dad's fury

should not result in my near death.

I need no lesson

from Bella Thorne.  People don't want me to feel Floridian.  What then?  How do you get away with stuff for so long?  I feel dead.

I realized

this is my blog, not someone else's.

People Who Think They're Worth Too Much

Like, Bella Thorne will be tackily *** complaining and suddenly something will hit where it says I deserve to be erased for her and she's like yea.. Chloe Grace Moretz, something she does, too.  Born 1997.  Who cares?  How does that make any sense?  Why wouldn't what I do matter?

You wronged me 1st

for younger kids and let them be mean to me.

Something I Thought You Oughtta Know, but Really

I am so glad I am not the age of Bella Thorne, Chloe Grace Moretz..

They are so bossy. Born 1997. It's so tacky. They suck up to adults. But they don't do it in a nice way.

So

Bella Thorne has nothing to lose so isn't a real, normal person, she seems to say, but since she's got nothing is nothing but where she's from, just a girl with the *** of the beach in her heart.  It's not even a real enjoyment of the beach in THAT way.  Get it?  She's pretty and thin but not always nice.  Why do people bother getting her to be sought after OVER me?  It can just be in a nice way.  Like, she wasn't imposing herself.

Sorry

I wasn't feeling well today at all.  I am always being attacked and it's always too late.

Vocaroo

Record and upload audio >>

Apology

I can't take it back in real life but I can say I want to, if I said you gave my mom cancer.  I'm worried cuz she's always sleeping.  I wonder how they got the cancer out of the back of her eye.  Her eye still hasn't opened all the way and she had a scar under her eye, though I didn't think that's where they went.  I'm eating my cereal and peeling my carrots.  I slept all day..  You know what Rising Star.

I dreamed

all I needed was in college, like ballet.

I slept the night and all day.

So much I felt sick from doing nothing, like tired.

Wow

Ellen, you're not really up there, you think that I deserve to be beaten down all the time.  You're crazy!  Everyone thinks so.  If I say something, you turn it into an ongoing what you call fight.

Don't even tell me I just dissed you.  I don't even remember half of what I was thinking it's so crazy!  Okay, I wasn't being sarcastic, but you keep being like that and that seems kinda lo and bipolar.  Seriously, how can I say this and not make fun of you cuz it needs to be said?  I see you at the ocean's bottom hitting a little ball at all passerby.  Ha ha ha.  Should I move this to my shit list or leave it here?  I'm sorry I said crazy, but that's basically what people think about your behavior.  You'd  be surprised how sacrificially nice many people are or act, most everyone.  I do thank you for being smart in your ways personally because it's so admirable.  Like, true, someone's gonna say, "***," and you say it 1st.

Anyone care to explain this?

(Did Ellen do it?)

@joshgroban @BarbraStreisand I can't wait to get this album :) pic.twitter.com/s1Cs8eS01q
— Kasia ♫ (@KasiaSmaga) August 11, 2014

Did it ever occur to you

that what Ellen does bounces back to her if me getting mad would bounce back on me and loved ones?

Another Sign

I wasn't alert on IMDb 12 hours ago..

I must admit

I do not deserve to be reminded of that girl all the time and do not have to admire her behavior.  It's like telling me to admire someone else like that.  Does she deserve it?  She's not that nice to me, sometimes.

How can I call it a cute game when I know it's just your punishment fantasies?

Problems

No one defends me, and people are mean all the time, when I am nice.

People were nicer until I thought of bopping someone old once, like a cartoon, not real, and now everything I have is shit.

I merely wanted to say

I could have acted as a child, not just someone else.  I see people obviously like Jackie Evancho change how they look because of money and look better than they used to.  They may have done it on purpose, at least her.  She was a cute little kid.  So was the other person.  I feel I'm saying it just to be nice, which should be a nice thing.  I just have a certain opinion about certain people, like I think they are not trying and just want immediate gratification|attention!  If I am like that, I try to make it somehow.  I didn't try to be an actor when I felt I was an ugly girl, even if it wasn't my fault I was ugly.  It's a certain thing to tell me I am not ever attractive and to find that you yourself have a more generic look or something, so generic it seems terribly plebeian and rebellious.  Why would anything like that ever happen?

I can't believe I thought to say that yesterday, really musta been upset and swayed, was already trying to fit in a statement of importance with someone else.

I'm worried.

My back still hurts.  My dad has made me mad.  It hurt a lot the day before.

What did I say that was so bad that I didn't know to correct?  On my Shit List?  Means it might not be perfect?  I see I just said it in a not bad way except I corrected that 1 word is all.  Why can she tell me I'm unattractive?  Ya'll indicate stuff like that all the time.

The fact that other girls matter

in a threatening way to me just makes me wanna not care.

People just

hate me more and more.  Even if I'm good.

Goood Feelings in the World

I just tried to m********* and decided I didn't really want to, didn't have to.

I had a dream I was at an apartment, and an old friend used to live there.  He walked with me, and I noticed he took my arm|hand and looked rather young, like early 20s.  It felt good.  He was maybe a blonde with kinda a shaven look, long head, German-American looking I think.  A lady had come before and I thought it was her sometimes, like I can't really focus..  Anyway, he seemed so kind and though younger and more stupid had latched on..  There was more the dream before.  More people.  I was convinced to want to find some episode of My Litle Pony, not sure what it would be.

Back to Bed?

I'm going to lie on my sofa

and probably fall asleep.  I took a nap earlier.

I wasn't called Asian before.

Spoiled

Bella, something bad is coming to you.  People hate people who have a lot of Floridian heritage.

No.

What happened to the old Bella?  She was in check like all the other famous teens.

It is niggerish

to be overly picky about how people act around you, like "Wha' you do that?"  I am nice, no reason to bother me.  I didn't say this for pleasure.

Did you know

my back hurts?  Not like twitching in pain, I can lay still.