All this crazy thinking

Is based on my old loser best friend and others like them for being mean and therefore not winning out as okay in the end.  You avoid normal thinking.  Most people do this.  I don't think this stuff is worth a ****.  People honestly thought highly of me before.  I don't have to accept this.  It is 1 big thing I am against.  It's the road that leads to nowhere.  It's something I talk about.  For instance, you all find it funny to think of some thing and keep the feeling going and make it an insult, like pretending you are the good 1.  Anyone want to rethink this part?