Christina Ann
Saturday, August 30, 2014
Help, I need help.
Ever since I got really upset once and actually hit things, like my sofa, in my room, my aunt's been traveling to see me and does not seem to be doing well. I think she has done it like 4 times as of soon. I think she is trying to make me feel uncomfortable, incessively. She's with my Gramma and will only be here a couple hours this time.
I realize this is inappropriate, but that's how I ended up forming my thoughts and writing.
Also, you'd need to know, she does not claim to read my blog, but my parents know when I do this I recently found, if I scream. They wouldn't tell her, though. Some people watch me on a secret camera, though they are far from perfect. This means she is in on things like this, I just realized.
Bare in mind the sincerity of my post. WWYD? You may help me out with next time I write all this about a problem.. people these days sure don't know how to e-mail nor post online with everyone.
I am also concerned they will do something to me for saying she does this "incessively" though it is an honest topic and writing without extra insults to hurt her nor anyone.
She also has visited with my brother all of a sudden, to celebrate his success in college. I don't want this incessant feeling to be involved with me of secret messages from her, like I need a mom, because I already wanted to be like friends with her before.. this is merely an attack at her disagreements with me, not that I did anything wrong. Her changing her lifestyle is a suggestive attempt but not quite like this. I sorta feel at this point it doesn't matter and it may not be exactly "what" is affecting me. It's a "secret" message with an "excuse."
I almost used the word "shit" in this post, and I am stuck with a secret message from the experimenters that when I reach the end of a line I should think about "me using that word 'to my aunt.'" She used that word a lot in my presence, I'm enough proud to say.
I am not willing to let it get by that kids younger than me deserve the sweeter and stellar generation as their parental generation without me saying I don't have parents as much, at all. I will not be raised at age 28 by backwards people who had their chance with me. There are boundaries for people like that. You want me to be your parental figure for you? Then, you listen! You think what you do doesn't mean anything to anyone. That's all that seems to count, what you really mean. Everyone has a chance. No one agrees with this. I do agree we need to be nice to older people, but there's something about people born around 1950. Some older people have things, too.
You know, I was with a lady and her granddaughter, I'm pretty sure, maybe Italian or possibly Spanish, and I didn't shave and someone thought I misbehaved recently, and she said, "You will not watch me undress." Now, people are all over like I did something, but I didn't. My life is horrible. I like to shave, but the meds make me tired and forgetful probably.
Also, these people experimenting on my just denied me, again, like I'm no good. I can express what I think. It comes on as a splash of inappropriateness, and you probably know what I'd say.
I realize this is inappropriate, but that's how I ended up forming my thoughts and writing.
Also, you'd need to know, she does not claim to read my blog, but my parents know when I do this I recently found, if I scream. They wouldn't tell her, though. Some people watch me on a secret camera, though they are far from perfect. This means she is in on things like this, I just realized.
Bare in mind the sincerity of my post. WWYD? You may help me out with next time I write all this about a problem.. people these days sure don't know how to e-mail nor post online with everyone.
I am also concerned they will do something to me for saying she does this "incessively" though it is an honest topic and writing without extra insults to hurt her nor anyone.
She also has visited with my brother all of a sudden, to celebrate his success in college. I don't want this incessant feeling to be involved with me of secret messages from her, like I need a mom, because I already wanted to be like friends with her before.. this is merely an attack at her disagreements with me, not that I did anything wrong. Her changing her lifestyle is a suggestive attempt but not quite like this. I sorta feel at this point it doesn't matter and it may not be exactly "what" is affecting me. It's a "secret" message with an "excuse."
I almost used the word "shit" in this post, and I am stuck with a secret message from the experimenters that when I reach the end of a line I should think about "me using that word 'to my aunt.'" She used that word a lot in my presence, I'm enough proud to say.
I am not willing to let it get by that kids younger than me deserve the sweeter and stellar generation as their parental generation without me saying I don't have parents as much, at all. I will not be raised at age 28 by backwards people who had their chance with me. There are boundaries for people like that. You want me to be your parental figure for you? Then, you listen! You think what you do doesn't mean anything to anyone. That's all that seems to count, what you really mean. Everyone has a chance. No one agrees with this. I do agree we need to be nice to older people, but there's something about people born around 1950. Some older people have things, too.
You know, I was with a lady and her granddaughter, I'm pretty sure, maybe Italian or possibly Spanish, and I didn't shave and someone thought I misbehaved recently, and she said, "You will not watch me undress." Now, people are all over like I did something, but I didn't. My life is horrible. I like to shave, but the meds make me tired and forgetful probably.
Also, these people experimenting on my just denied me, again, like I'm no good. I can express what I think. It comes on as a splash of inappropriateness, and you probably know what I'd say.
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