I WILL *BEEP* EVERYONE

if I have just become a normal, forgiving citizen in the face of wrong and am no longer the hero I used to be treated as

Ugh!

My dad has gone *beep* acting like he's figuring I'm not nice and good but like everyone else, like he abuses me to get something to blame in my reaction, but that's just stupid cuz he did something to get upset at.  I'm not just a bad person.  I talk how I like on my blog and sometimes in real life.

Problem

All these people trying to make me feel bad!  Treat yer wife that way!

Just face it.

Ellen either has nothing to say or likes other people.

All she's been doing is making punishing people up for something to say, like the Wizard of Oz.

I heard

my mom giving a damn of you all's *beep*.

No one gives a *beep*

what you say and what you don't say.  I'm not being sarcastic.  I'm saying.

I know.

I know, Brad, it's like I'm on here all day, and people posting on Twitter is the bite I'm waiting for.  There's no NEW Ellen to watch.

You wanna talk this one out?

U wanna TALK bro?

I know what this really means.  You some crazy northerner with high expectations when things like that are too late?

Music is my painkiller.
— Johnny Depp (@J0HNNYDepp) August 18, 2014

Why

get so mad if I rat you out as being racist and prejudiced and biased away from me?  I didn't even attack you as you did me!

People hate me

but say alright sarcastically I wanna talk to the people you know or have in your life.

It's even like ooh I found you out!  You got movie material friends!  Not you.

Guess

I will be in General Studies before I do music, unless I just wait and go to Disney.

School

I guess I will try to get a degree at a community college, "the new one."

Independent

I'm more independent than I thought.

Worried

With the playing with my eyes, I was worried it was a hate crime.  What do you mean to talk back to me and say how dare I say that and not be as nice?  I really dig into that stuff.  I accepted it, but I'm wondering what's up, now.  Maybe, I shouldn't.  I just feel something else also happening like it in the air.

I wouldn't do a lot of things others do, anyway.

How hysterical

do people become if I hit something when I'm mad?  It's not like I'm drunk.

College

I guess I'll do singing and ballet at UCF or just keep auditioning, too.

Apology?

Is idiot a bad base word?  Saying someone is being idiotic by being mean to you maybe?

Again

The joke that I've become a joke is another of your mistakes in Southern pride.  I don't mean to hone in on 1 person, but I feel I'm making a simple statement and not a pressing attack.  What if it happened to you?  Doesn't anyone here talk about problems, at least, to solve them?  I can't just be outta the boat, the big boat..

I was a well-respected, neat, clean, well-behaved girl.  I can't become some lost-in-love loon.

I went out

and saw my mom and totally thought I don't deserve to be abused, like have my eyes supposedly go wild.  He did that to me.

Nothing I have said has been totally wrong, and I will not glide across life worrying about what I said about the girl, which wasn't really bad and not considering what it was.  I don't listen to Ellen.  Someone get Ellen for doing all this.  I am being bombarded with messages from her.  I think she has hurt me and made me feel old.

So, tell me what's up, now?  Was what I said really that disruptive to you?  Cuz I'm not some female nigger animal object.  I am a strong girl, and everyone has smoothly treated me as such, except people with European fathers.

I hope you don't get mad at this, but I'm not sure what to retype so much as I'm adding explanation.  Yea, I feel like I've lost respect.  So, what?  Ellen has been sending me these messages since 2012, and it is wrong and painful, and so what if it's not painful?  So, what, if I cursed in pain?  You might think I stopped, but in a way I didn't just stop.