Monday, August 25, 2014

So Sad

I met a good flautist and spotted a good violinist online, but the world may never know..

I don't get it.

I'm having troubles feeling like a kid born in 1997|8 and I feel invaded about my dad's age compared to others.  It's okay to talk about it, but I'm sure this situation is and isn't perfect.  Just saying.  I can fix it myself.  I was thinking of myself having a kid like someone born in 1997|8, not sure when that time will come, like 2009, too.

My dad is old enough but not too old that I talk.  I'm not ye silent wonder..

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Ellen DeGeneres

 
Posting as Christina Ann J Barrett (Not you?)
  • Christina Ann J Barrett
    My life is revolving around you and your show starting up. There are also other plans. I mean personal things to keep 1 happy..?
  • Trendi Kendi · NCU
    Hi Ellen.I am Kendra Williams. I sent you my story via email. I do hope you read it someday...I am from the island of Dominica. I would love to be a part of your show but don't have an American visa.I am sorry love your spirit.keep being sweet
    • Christina Ann J Barrett
      I know, I heard it was hard to get a VISA. America can be a mess, but I hope you are ready when you do come. :) For example, in Florida, it feels so pieced together. Not many people here with very ancient ancestors from here. I have no clue what it's like in a more united country..?
  • Ashley Anderton Russell · TCC
    Keller, TX....i need to tell u some funny stories that have haunted me my entire life. i can make them funny now...it still effects me but i'd love to meet you
    • Christina Ann J Barrett
      Sounds like you've been experiencing a nice full and active life. I think I could find stories, myself. Sometimes, it's just the mood and the people you're with. LOL! See, I lived in the nation's oldest continuing city, and it's made me who I am today..?

      No, let's talk about it more. I'm guessing Florida has the least native residents from any culture relating to the nature of the area. They dilute you and tell you your ancestry is overrated and rather dead. I don't even know what it's like there anymore, but it seems race is a big issue, like Southern European versus Mid-Northern European. See, I visited there, and I mean it looks like a spot on the map. We live more socially rather than of the city. However, what I love and find in its history is its beautiful farmland and learning what it's like up north, as my mom is Chinese-Indonesian and as anyone knows a younger mom. (Well, someone once said a young mom is 15, hers..)

      I'm interested in the South, too, in the U.S. After all, it's European, like my dad. I lived there all my life. I've been up north for college, and it turned me into a Northerner. My family all moved to the South. They live in Florida..

      I feel connected to you because I found that the New Orleans area had an affinity to Texas more than Mississippi. Mississippi is more like Florida.

      (I hope it is okay I posted all this here. If not, let me know. Thanks!)

So, I'm gonna get into this and post it today.

So, the older kids or kids with older parents pretty themselves more basically.  The younger ones look more stern in European but "feel good" and appear cute in a crowd.

Sunday, August 24, 2014

It looks like

my dreams never will come true, cuz everything is give and take.

Like dark hair but pretty.  Light hair but ugly.

If

Ellen helps me, does Tim Burton?

Movie

The girl in front when she turns and stuff looks complicated like I did at 10, which makes sense.

Movie

They had a book Pigmalion in it.

Why not just forget about people.

You literally tell the kids born in 1997-8 they are better.  You tell us we "aren't" that.

You.. people.

Another

So, this came out Christmas 2003.

clickable
Elf 2003

Last Post

The little girl kicked her foot and fell into the lady who like held her up.  She looked around and stuff.

What right do you have

to sort people as better or worse by the year they were born?  In the picture I post on this post, the older girl looks prettier, but the younger 1 is too lazy to look more like that yet still gets a good experience, while the other is an inbetweener generation in the landmarks of generations.

I agree it should be like that in some way.  Yet, earlier in the movie we must experience a lady who has dark reddish dyed hair from probably Southern California making sure that she also is a hero for these kids born 1997-8.


Elf 2003

Did you ever consider

non-Pennsylvanians to not be all as organized and pepped as they're cracked up to be?

Good Idea to Shop Next Month?

$120? + extra $50 per week (which I like to save for Disney)

Weights
$31.23
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Jillian Michaels
$9 - Abs
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$9 - Cardio
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$8 - Power Scupt
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Fructis Garnier Facial Cleanser
Frizz Ease Curl Stuff


Makeup
-powder
-base

Deodorant

Shaving Cream
Razer Blades

Toothpaste
Mouthwash

Silent Spinner
Hamster Bedding
Dreams of Pay Day Come My Way

Update

I changed some links.
At least let us watch and leave us alone when we comment.  Was this getting sarcastic to you?  Cuz that's how I talk.  It means it literally, though, not messing around.
Why would I get mad at something I didn't post that people would get mad at me even if I posted it?

Video


Amazing strength.

heeyy

Why does Josh Groban get to rub elbows?  Technically, I'm shitting in my room all the time.

Video


Too bad it is 1/2 illegal..

No I do not

have family in nor from New Orleans.

Video



Chloe keeps battling like she's older than all these people, like me, bossing me around to say to make it look good, thinking she's more Southern, though Georgia is a Southern state, different from New Orleans and Florida.

Comment on That Video

on the shorter 1

So.. how did Ellen react to Brittany being Floridian? I could talk about that about as much as I've talked about racism. Lotta things come up that you forget were okay.

Interesting



I don't have an extraneous problem about myself having parents not from up north cuz I heard it was bad if you didn't. I don't think that's how things ended up rolling out, as much as people seemed to deny it.

Brittany Snow is Floridian..

Sad @ My Mom

I don't want this to be it.  I need someone.  She seems like she's about to die.  Ellen might be an excuse for others who hurt her and made her like this, or it was just the stress from the car accidents.  I was upset when I saw her in glasses.  I've told her to slow down.  She never listened, like my brother, didn't listen to me.

Video


Reminds me a lot of me but seems in on so much more.  What if I was adopted?

So..

..I got some pills that deflect pre-diabetes and helps with diabetes.  I take 12 pills, now.

Oh, they are just natural vitamins, the pre-diabetes pills.

Saturday, August 23, 2014

Twitter

we_luv_Ellen

Aw, I'll let that 1 go.

Now, I have a fast blog..

..It's not like I made a petition by posting an Ellen video.



She's on TV.

Singing is Farting

Remember?

Anyone who's sung significantly is Josh Groban material, but now these Late Boomer parents sheild young people from singing unless they are outta-this-world objects of pleasure.
Everyone hates me and brings up race, when you're not supposed to, which isn't often.  "Quit respecting Middle Easterners."

Problemos

I don't want my dad's m********ing hands on me, I wanted the experience in school theater, but that teacher barely put her finger on me.

The last Vocaroo

is shitty but has some interesting songs at the end.

Vocaroo

2/5


Audio recording software >>
Wonder how that lady feels who was moving stuff around when I was asleep and made my nose wide.  }:|

I don't mean

to be mean to anyone, but sometimes I get really mad, usually just at Ellen.  Why act like, oh, I'm attracted to Ellen, must listen?

Satisfaction

What do you get for being racist to me, when you shouldn't know me as anything but white?  I don't care what your heritage is and what it means to you.

Think about it, you "admit" something that isn't true.

Call someone else that who isn't.

You didn't earn your heritage.  I did.

You must think you're pretty magical.

Question

So, do you think I'm still 2 years old?  I'm not uneducated on what it is to want to be white.

Friday, August 22, 2014

Think of all I was

for Tim Burton and what he did, but he never accepted it cuza my race and now the world is tortured.  No offense to him.  I just must report what goes unseen.  I was quite impressive.  I also blame Orlando.  Sorry, they are and can be so sweet.

Just watch a Jewish person and see if it's good, too.

Do some people not want your help

and just want you to leave them alone?

"OK ya'll will never believe this.."

I just watched a video from a Josh Groban concert.

Update

I updated the People section.

I figured it out.

I must get over my Orlando addiction.  People used to be too violent to rule out those who are less than perfect.

Has anyone seen..

"What If?"  I thought it'd be a nice show.  It just let me know people were sarcastic to the actor of Harry Potter.  I mean racist.  He is Jewish, not sure how much..

The show showed an image of him with a new girl I've never seen before.

Freaky

I said

I'm sitting this 1 out.

Ellen follows people who think wrong things to cope, but she shouldn't be spilling beans all over people who do right things.  She challenges good people, like, "Who do you think you are?"

By challenging good people, I also was not being sarcastic.

Adults online cannot hurt bad people

cuz they do it for fun but mainly because the adults are prejudiced to the real online experience cuz lotta people never got a blog and never posted much online or on the Soapbox on IMDb.

In some way

my dad doesn't love me.  He doesn't care if other people are better.

So..

..why be mean to me?

I want my job now.

I don't wanna just sit at home.  The thing is I wanted to be in the military.  Ultimately, I wanna be an actor, singer, ballerina.  I can only seem to pick 2.

People are always

spewing negativity at me.  What happened to the happy thoughts?

If I leave home since I'm an adult I will still be bothered.
Do only pretty people fight?

My talent may be made up

but is my will?

What If

Europe copied us and now has American problems?  Like, coming to an end of being stimulating about something, like an orchestra, when watching it again.

The only reason I seem bad

is because my parents aren't both all white.  Other people can be fancy at home.  I'm home a lot.

Vocaroo

My Favorite Things


Record and upload audio >>

3/5

How Could It Get in a Man?

I think Johnny Depp still is all he said he was and not worse than Tim Burton.  It's so annoying he just is afraid to be it because he thinks my dad and other dads of people my age would rather us be in trouble.

Don't worry about how I posted this, like "How do I think it could get in a man?"  I'm not being sarcastic.
Instagram

I'm sitting this 1 out.

Ellen follows people who think wrong things to cope, but she shouldn't be spilling beans all over people who do right things.  She challenges good people, like, "Who do you think you are?"

Thursday, August 21, 2014

Did you notice

other singers thinking I can't sing all of a sudden?  Ask a great singer.

Did anyone else notice?

Twitter is the new MySpace?

Update

New Tab
Instagram

I'm bored

of just being in trouble.  That's Southern rivalry.

Another 1 to Wish You Could Bother Chasing After

Someone keeps thinking negatively of me, but it's just "important."  Like, it was that I wasn't substantial emotionally for others, but I am.  I don't touch people a lot, don't get ot.  I majored and was kicked out of Music Education, which pro singers can major in.

Ice Bucket

Recently, coincidentally, I swelled up and was dying to get dry under the covers I threw on me from the floor by my sofa.

I don't like this.

I'm not a slave to this girl.  I don't need to sit here and zone in on someone who doesn't appreciate me.  I have my own needs to be met.

So..

..these people are escalating the level of their talking about a girl to me online.  1 started, the next followed, and the other increased it.  They don't really seem to have anything to say.  Too bad they don't get a blog.

Also, they're just doing it to hurt me.  They pretend I'm bad.

I didn't say they had to stop, I said what was going on.  They seem to not really be on the ball, in some way, and I am uninterested in what this says to me.  Why would I sit here at a time like this and have an intimate conversation about stupid things and things others do like that?  Maybe, this post isn't for them.  It's for other people.

What I See

I don't see, my cousin and brother will be jealous of me, so that's why we can chose to treat her like them.  I see, I don't like Christina, so I treat her like she's in trouble.

Well

You never cared what I said really.  So, how could my true opinion interfere?  I meant no harm.

Do you play with yourself?

This is pathetic.

No one gets in trouble for saying I'm a nigger.  Well, they do.

Vocaroo


Audio and voice recording >>


Church Medley

Wednesday, August 20, 2014

Tuesday, August 19, 2014

I mean..

..I feel people are going on and on pretending I am a bad person.  People all get to live on the suggestion those people are spoiled, but when will they excel?

Freedom of Speech

Mum's not the word. xxxxxx

Why

would anyone get to think I'm bad, now?  You all hurt me.  I wasn't being mean.  I got the message today that maybe I was fighting.  Maybe, that's why.  Why should I accept being mistreated?  I'm not Jesus and I don't believe in that part of the New Testament.

Why would I get in trouble

for you knowing my race?  Didn't it help people understand I have problems?  Instead, they made it worse for me.

It's like you think I don't have a shot at trying to be "the one."

Think over my 1st question|statement, 1st.

Do you wanna help me out and tell me why you think I'm different?  Johnny Depp is well-off and he is part black, with an ancestor as the 1st freed black lady.

Buses

Pale

Got a Call

U of Pheonix

Easily Figured

To get a Josh Groban tattoo is not as esteemed as looking like him in some way.  So, when you say oh but that's not a tattoo, it's not, but the tattoo isn't supposed to be the only thing that makes you a fan over all others.  So, that good feeling was for a different decision.
Roses of Apologies

Vocaroo

2/5 - Simple Gifts - Me Singing Over My Piano Accompanying


Record and upload audio >>
How can I trust I will get a turn?

Since when was being totally nuked of strength a good sign, like people who look like they're just a bubble?  I have nothing to latch onto.  It's like I couldn't have gotten anything better down.

Monday, August 18, 2014

Like OMG do you know?

Josh Groban is trying to act like he knows the South and people from Florida don't.
If 1 thing happens for 1 reason but not for something else, it's not related.
Is there nothing to do on this earth?
Why make a girl feel something she hates?

PMing

Medicines all have side-effects, including death.

PMing

She didn't earn it. She might have been kept from it, but others are suffering.

Problem

Why do these select people mistreat me?  I am to be respected, but ya'll get mad when something about my race comes up.  This didn't happen in grade school..

I was told I passed the test.

Because I admitted I had a problem-

Note

To my aunt on Facebook posting to her sister's daughter.

Why did you post this to her wall? You know, you're not more my mom because of your age being closer to my dad. You were putting your face in mine like you were even kissing me when you visit me all mad and honestly rather tacky. You're just another person. I don't feel love for your age being close to my dad.. You're too late to do that. I'm 28.

***

I just took a test.  It's about addiction.

Below are the results from your test.


We have compared your answers with people who have been diagnosed with sex addiction. Your answers have met a score based on six criteria that indicate sex addiction is present.
In addition there are certain subscales to further confirm that a problem exists. The following patterns emerged in your answers:
•A profile consistent with women who struggle with *** compulsive behavior
•A profile consistent with homosexual men who struggle with *** compulsive behavior


The SAST measures key characteristics of addiction. The following dimensions of an addictive disorder appeared in your answers:
•Preoccupation: obsessive thinking about *** behavior, opportunities, and fantasies
•Loss of control: inability to stop behavior despite commitments to self and others and despite problems caused by behavior
•Relationship disturbance: *** behavior has created significant relationship problems
•Affect disturbance: significant depression, despair, or anxiety over *** behavior


It's clear as crystal to me.  I chose those answers.

"I have been paid for ***."

Check.

Yes!

Get the cookie!

Let's all just calm down.

"I have stayed in romantic relationships after they became emotionally or physically abusive.

I must confess

I was a crazed demon, but I'm calming down more now.  Good thing I have meds?

The Hope Line (cont.)

Coach: Regardless of what major you pursue, I want you to know that pursuing God is the most important thing you can do. Seek Him and all those majors and questions about auditions, will fall into place.
4:58 PM
Coach: His plan for you is better than any plan you could make for yourself. Follow after Him and get freedom and healing from past hurts. Ask Him to help heal you and cleanse you and surround you with peace.
4:59 PM
Christina Barrett: OK thanks :)
4:59 PM
Coach: Also, I would love to pray with you? Before we end, would you like me to?
4:59 PM
Christina Barrett: OK
4:59 PM
Coach: Awesome! I'll pray below:
5:00 PM
Coach: Father, thank you that you are peace. You are the one that calms the storms around us. You are the one that heals the hurt. Jesus, thank you that Christina came here to talk today....
5:00 PM
Coach: I pray that you would guide her towards your truth, towards the idenity that you have for her in you...
5:01 PM
Coach: You think thoughts of love towards your daughter. You give joy and healing. You know Christina has been hurt by the things she thinks other people have said...
5:01 PM
Coach: Jesus, I pray that you would silence the voice of accusation and unloving in Christina's mind. I bind those voices and thoughts that are not of you, and I command them to go. Jesus, fill those places now with your peace....
5:02 PM
Coach: Let you truth and your Spirit just wash over Christina. Let her feel your love right now surrounding her....
5:02 PM
Coach: Jesus, help Christina to forgive those in her life that have hurt her. Remove all bitterness and hurt from her soul and mind....
5:03 PM
Coach: You know that she is studying music God and that she wants to get auditions but doesnt believe that she can do it. Lord, I pray that you would give Christina such a hunger for you that she would seek you first before all that...
5:04 PM
Coach: Jesus, give her wisdom and a perspective from your point of view concerning her life. Speak truth to her. We command the confusion to be gone in the name of Jesus....
5:04 PM
Coach: Surround Christina with peace Jesus, complete peace and let her know that you love her and want to make her new: new mind, new heart, new idenity....
5:05 PM
Coach: Father as she reads, I pray that you would speak to her through your Word. Loud and clear, let your truth just hit her heart and heal those places of hurt....
5:06 PM
Coach: Jesus, protect Christina from things that are not of you. Remove those things that are not of you from her and from her environment. Bless her today with peace. Help her also as she goes to these other websites. Let her be encouraged there...
5:06 PM
Coach: In Jesus' name we pray, Amen.
5:06 PM
Christina Barrett: Amen.
5:07 PM
Christina Barrett: Thank you so much! You are such a highly intelligent being!
5:07 PM
Coach: Im glad you came in to talk today and that we got to pray together!
5:07 PM
Christina Barrett: :) Keep it that way and get better.
5:07 PM
Christina Barrett: Yes!
5:07 PM
Coach: Thank you Christina! that is so kind. Check out those websites okay?
5:07 PM
Christina Barrett: OK :)
5:07 PM
Christina Barrett: Bye!
5:07 PM
Coach: byee! :)