Chat 2

1:49 PM

Coach: Thanks for chatting with us ... what is going on that we might help you with?

1:49 PM

Christina Barrett: I was just at the sexline, and they said my issue wasn't sex.

1:50 PM

Christina Barrett: I came out as always nice for my father, but he seemed a bit rough as usual.

1:50 PM

Christina Barrett: I became upset and him sending me secret signals like that I was shit.

1:50 PM

Christina Barrett: I talked to him how I didn't like mainly now his sister and his mom and how they are coming tomorrow to see my brother in college who will go away soon.

1:51 PM

Christina Barrett: I left, and he left a sexual aura and so I did the dishes a bit rough and trembled in anger. Only my brother and mom with cancer are home. She's in bed a lot, too. It didn't sound that suspicious. I came in my room and hit the sofa and screamed a few times. People will know and act like they can punish me at 28 and I'm just not looking forward to it.

1:52 PM

Christina Barrett: If they're shit, just let them be shit, but they might know that's how I feel and get worse.

1:52 PM

Coach: You're 28 years old correct?

1:53 PM

Christina Barrett: Yes.

1:53 PM

Coach: Ok

1:53 PM

Coach: You could leave and get out of the situation correct?

1:53 PM

Christina Barrett: Do people my age hurt themselves?

1:54 PM

Christina Barrett: Not easily.

1:54 PM

Christina Barrett: I want to be a singer and dancer and actress in movies.

1:54 PM

Christina Barrett: We don't have money, and my credit is bad.

1:54 PM

Christina Barrett: I could go to college..

1:55 PM

Coach: That sounds like a good plan. Are you in counseling?

1:55 PM

Christina Barrett: Yes.

1:55 PM

Coach: Ok.

1:55 PM

Coach: What are your spiritual beliefs?

1:55 PM

Christina Barrett: She thinks I should go to a clubhouse where people who don't work go so I'm safe.

1:55 PM

Christina Barrett: I was very Catholic until I got "sick" and we didn't go to church cuz my mom worked then.

1:56 PM

Coach: Ok

1:56 PM

Christina Barrett: I want to go this week.

1:56 PM

Christina Barrett: I have some clothes I can wear.

1:57 PM

Coach: Can I share some of what the Bible says can help you in this situation?

1:57 PM

Christina Barrett: I'm starting adult ballet, 1 hour classes, 4 times a week..

1:57 PM

Christina Barrett: OK

1:57 PM

Coach: God wants us to cast our worries on Him (Psalm 55:22)

1:57 PM

Coach: Christ cares for us in our worries (1 Peter 5:7)

1:57 PM

Christina Barrett: I read that we will never be forgiven. I read the code. I can go get it and share what it said.

1:58 PM

Coach: God’s love provides peace and overcomes fear and worry (John 16:33)

1:58 PM

Coach: The Bible doesn't say that...

1:58 PM

Coach: If we keep our mind on Christ, he will keep us in peace (Isaiah 26:3)

1:58 PM

Christina Barrett: “'They have not forgotten the Mysteries,' she said, ‘they have found them too difficult. They want a God who will care for them, who will not demand that they struggle for enlightenment, but who will accept them just as they are, with all their sins, and take away their sins with repentance. It is not so, it will never be so, but perhaps it is THE ONLY WAY the UNENLIGHTENED can bear to think of their Gods.'"

1:59 PM

Christina Barrett: That's the Old Testament.

1:59 PM

Christina Barrett: That the Jews read.

1:59 PM

Coach: Yes. But the Jews do not believe Christ as the Messiah.

1:59 PM

Christina Barrett: The New Testament says after death we are washed away of sin.

1:59 PM

Christina Barrett: Yes.

2:00 PM

Christina Barrett: After the death of Christ.

2:00 PM

Christina Barrett: I mean it seems to.

2:00 PM

Christina Barrett: I never read it verbatim.

2:00 PM

Coach: Jew have no new testament. Christ does forgive us when we ask...

2:00 PM

Coach: Jews

2:00 PM

Christina Barrett: Yes..

2:00 PM

Christina Barrett: I have no problems with that.

2:00 PM

Coach: Can I pray with you now?

2:01 PM

Christina Barrett: My dad actually always acts like I did something wrong when I came out presentable.

2:01 PM

Christina Barrett: Yes.

2:01 PM

Coach: Ok

2:01 PM

Coach: Father in the name of

2:01 PM

Christina Barrett: ?

2:01 PM

Coach: Jesus we come

2:01 PM

Coach: before you and

2:01 PM

Coach: ask that you give Christina direction

2:01 PM

Coach: and show her your love

2:01 PM

Coach: for her as she struggles

2:01 PM

Coach: to understand her place

2:01 PM

Coach: and purpose

2:02 PM

Coach: Give her your plan, ourpose

2:02 PM

Coach: and pursuit for her life

2:02 PM

Coach: as she leans into you.

2:02 PM

Coach: Father giver the wisdom

2:02 PM

Coach: to make good and sound decisions

2:03 PM

Coach: as she trudges forwarded and show her way in Jesus name. Amen.

2:03 PM

Christina Barrett: Amen.

2:03 PM

Coach: You are stronger than you think...

2:03 PM

Christina Barrett: Yes.

2:03 PM

Coach: God created you to llove you.

2:03 PM

Christina Barrett: I wasn't so bad. I just said nothing was wrong.

2:03 PM

Christina Barrett: Yes, like 1 of my pets.

2:04 PM

Coach: Haha

2:04 PM

Christina Barrett: My pets help me.

2:04 PM

Christina Barrett: My hamster makes me at peace.

2:04 PM

Coach: We love our pets for sure:)

2:04 PM

Christina Barrett: A small girl.

2:04 PM

Christina Barrett: Yes, I want to train a dog.

2:04 PM

Christina Barrett: Hope I can afford the love. :]

2:04 PM

Coach: :)

2:05 PM

Coach: What would you study if you went to college?

2:05 PM

Christina Barrett: My dad says he hopes I feel better..

2:05 PM

Coach: That's good.

2:06 PM

Christina Barrett: I want to be a singer and dancer, so I'd do a classical singing Bachelor of Music with ballet or a dance minor with more ballet. I never did modern dance much.

2:06 PM

Christina Barrett: I used to look up colleges with ballet nearby.

2:06 PM

Coach: Sounds like a good plan.

2:06 PM

Christina Barrett: I already sang a lot, probably more intesnsely than Josh Groban, who I wanna sing with.

2:06 PM

Christina Barrett: My aunt said to just worry about my singing and stuff and I said I wanna sing with him cuz I know my voice used to be better than his until I wanted to act so am getting it back.

2:07 PM

Christina Barrett: Like worry about singing and not other stuff.

2:07 PM

Coach: You can do it if you put your mind to it.

2:08 PM

Christina Barrett: Yes, my break has come to another end. I did some theater last time. Too bad I didn't get enough sleep.

2:08 PM

Coach: Take care of yourself and chat back when you need to, ok?

2:08 PM

Christina Barrett: OK thanks! :) Bye!

2:08 PM

Coach: Cya

DOO WA DILLY DILLY DUM DILLY DO

SOUTHERNERS ARE ***

I'm already desensitized from my pain killers and can't seem to control some of my body.

Facebook

Post by The Ellen DeGeneres Show.

Ellen is saying I'm not the 1 cuz I was mad at what she did.  She's wrong to tell people to do this.  I feel very violent and don't know what to do about this.  I know it's an insult.

They keep bringing up other people as punishments, but mainly it's just this 1 annoying person.  I don't think any 1 person was really annoying, but that's how it is.  So anyone wanna answer?

I have relatives over tomorrow, and I was mad doing the dishes, came in my room to scream and hit my sofa.  They will wanna use it against me.  I don't want them to visit, but they're here to see my brother and maybe sick mom.  I had to like tremble in anger, though, thought that would do it.  What can I do?  I decided to stop, though.  People should not be attacking me as a test.

Still going around making fun of me?

It wouldn't be funny if it happened to you.

Like, these people who've been talking to me want to talk to other people to make fun of me.

Seriously?  Not exactly to be enjoyable?  Technically, how could I say no?  It depends on what everyone wants, I guess.  I want to become a real person.  I don't believe I will make this audition, neither.  Instead, I'm some fake person, and people have gotten into this, too..  Like, what if you were fake?  I'm not some honored celebrity!!

Why

Is Puttin on the Ritz like Willy Wonka?

What do you think of this?

link

90s

apparently I know it's the early 90s, does reminisc of an 80s feel

Another Song I Like

didn't get this 1, walking on sunshine

This song was popular when I was born apparently.

link

Now that's a good question!

"Do you love me??"

I can't believe

the hate people have with immediate families with someone born in 1950.. like without siblings, so if it's the mom or dad.

They keep beating us down so the future generations are better and the past ones are smarter.

What do you think of

"Doo You LoveME"

I like it.  Sounds like a normal place to live, which could be Pennsylvania.

Well

I can see myself being attracted to Pennsylvania, if you wanna think of it ancestrally and not just your 2 parents..

Just go away..

The Chinese are immoral..

(I don't mean literally..?)

like omg

Josh Groban gets to sing Little Drummer Boy on Oprah and thinks other people who sing in the world suck?

link

Admiration

I like what the South is able to give to us aesthetically.  I am not a part of a life of the North, like a living breeding forever captive cell.  I do feel I have a place there from my dad, but I also have a place in the South from actually living there.

I guess

people don't put everyone in uncomfortable situations with their parents ancestrally.

What can I say?

I've always lived in the South.  I am from an urban but not big city area.

I've been up North and like it, though..

A Nice Lady

but Sarah Brightman sings better cuz she has more exciting experiences, whereas I'm really mad cuz I ain't gone none now.

Since you don't have real, lasting

Southern hospitality.  I consider myself a Southerner AND a Northerner, more a Southerner.

So..

..Southern people think they are better than EVERYONE else, unless it's time to say if 2 people are not as good as one another and relate that to bettering themselves.  The kids are so annoying and whiny.

Problem

What if I feel like I'm more Southern AND more Northern?  How do you do that?

Why don't you just accept it's in a different way and moreso in that way than others?

If you like it so much, you should be happy.

People who stay up north

don't get mad.  It's actually nice if you go like further up sometimes.

Obvious

We all know we wish we were MORE Southern if we're from Florida or New Orleans.  Ya'll put it on display.

Weird Voice

So, I threw up last night a few times.  I really need either a teacher or more time of practice.

Oh well.

I liked Josh Groban more than he could possibly like me.  It's wet ink in the Library of Congress.

He has several more videos with her, I think.. 1 with this other French girl, too.  I know what it means, he he he.

Well, it's true.

Josh Groban is getting fat and unhappy, and I'm still a young ballet girl.

What a fool.

She's acting like she's prettier than me cuz she has friends that waste her down.

Look how sarcastic she is.  She's full of it.

She wants me never to see him again.  What a fool!



I just found she must be another French girl.  They are 2-sided.  Quit acting like you can tell what my race is..  *Beep*

I just found an audition.

in September.  I should act and sing.  I will be in dance, too.  It's the week after The Nutcracker auditions, which is a few after Adult Ballet also starts.

Wanna know what doesn't make sense?

I never wanted to say bad things in the 1st place, so why test me about it and make it harder?

This happens if I overeat.

What

Been in so much pain with my back all day and all night.  I even threw up the painkillers.  My stomach was stuffed with food.  I just had a big bowl of ice cream with chocolate syrup, apparently they do eat popsicles..

This is just a waste of time.

I hope this ballet class is slightly more productive.

How Insulting

To cheaply make the excuse I've done something in my life that is not perfect.  Yer wrong.

1 MO' (1 more)

If Josh Groban was an animal, he'd be a weasel.

Singin'

Salooongals sing
Bratty snot-nosed children sing

But I yodel
And yoelin's.. AN ART!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

(Home on the Range - 2003|4)

I've lived

being fed up about Texans.  New Orleanians are strong.

Then

Why the **** did he intercede?  Does that offend you?  Why would he be racist as an excuse not to sing with me but sing with others someday????

OK!

Josh Groban stop being Josh from the Bible, whoever that is.

This looks like my ballet teacher

Except darker skin and shorter hair.

link

I Swear

I will get my voice back and it'll be Josh's dream to sing with me.

Ah

Christina is younger than Josh Groban, so treat him like he's younger?

I just can't stop staring.

I wanted to be a performer when I was young.  I can act, too, you know.

Wondering

Josh a baby?

I am youthfully strong.

OK

I see why Josh has such a long skinny face.

kids?

acting like babies like I'm all that to the world and don't give a **** about me

How Immature

2 kids who can't sing better than me

link

*ya'll go to hell not givin me my fame - singing, dancing, arts*

Girls

If you wanna be Prez of the US consider Hillary an ice breaker like Charlotte Church.. That'll do that.

Better Than Most Anyone

to be the pioneer of any lady presidents.

I vote for

Hillary Clinton.

She'd be a good motherly President.  Not sure what Obama's done these 2 terms, been online the whole time.

On My Own

I'm writing the poem to turn into a story song I can play on the piano and sing.  Then, I will try to sell it on iTunes via TuneCore.

It's final.

I don't want this in my life.

Quit bugging me about stuff you think I did wrong.  It's not nice, you know.  I'm not a piece of trash.

Why do people think people pretended I was good all along?  Just admit it, you said you hated your parents as conscious teengers or older kids.  You were much worse than me.  People helped you to get better even if you didn't listen.  They still cared.  Why do I get the feeling you're not listening?

SMART

If I get to be independent of my father's identity, so do you.

Instagram

New Photo of Me

Tumbling

I might be able to do tumbling for $10.  The adult gymnastics is a little expensive, and I almost hurt my arm cuz I'm so overweight.  So, I'll wait.

This is a waste of my blood-sucking time.  I'm also a nobody to anyone.

Forcing Me to Talk to Someone

Who doesn't wanna talk with me, but about stupid shit?!  No offense with my cursing.

Friday

I think I'll go to gymnastics.  They have a bar there.  It's Open Gym.

Why

is there stuff to do with old bfs?

I can't seem to do what you ask.

No one would agree.

Is the Intuitive option

the button to push for artsy people, some are romantic, others are analytical?

I'll come up

and I'll smile and be nice.  Ya'll can't get along with me.  What do you want?  Might as well some of you speak to me and help me get famous.

Why since

Tim Burton are people pushing me back with an upturned mouth and squinted, tilted eyes?  Does this give you some voucher?

Did anyone just knock themselves down a caliber?

You're not mean to others.

Ya'll are stupid, not you in particular.

Looks like you got it better than me.

If you don't think so, you're crazy, no offense..

Does Not Make Sense..

Did you cheat?

Are you cool?

What score did YOU get on the IQ test?

Sit back and look at everything like a nice person!

I had to sacrifice..

Lonely

Take it slowly, and people will begin to make sense....

Don't put them up there.

My Point

Quit pretending I'm of a low and dirty caliber mentally and emotionally.

To Whom It May All Concern

Your typing does not strike me particularly as attractively intelligent and substantial.

Your face?  I laugh!  Your body?  Let's see you do a little dance.

I know I am capable of your feelings so I should chose to, the way Ellen doesn't really rock out each day.

What about me makes you calculate I am shit?  You are like everyone else and need to protect yourself from not being cooler so you can pretend you can tell me what to do.

I am weaving in thoughts from others but do not aim this at their interests but rather to those pulling at my body.

It is racist

as much for a white person to act white as it is for someone with non-white blood to.

People don't care about multiracial groups who have autism.

Money

I'd like to make some now so I can get a refreshment when I walk around and stuff like that, a hat stand, a breakfast bar..

Vocaroo

1st - not so good
2nd - nice
3rd - a better song for me

beginning luck - maybe worth a 1.75/5



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So what?

Is anyone really good at anything?

Don't curse.

No one will take you seriously and make it a big deal.

I'd rather not go into that.

I was feelin' kinda lo'!

I really feel

I'm on the ball starting ballet and auditioning for the Nutcracker.  I think I just fixed my life from being a bum.

How can I function

if you permanently take away your kindness??  I'm still available.

Am I correct in saying it is under the illusion that

the people on my Twitter are all beady-eyed directing their eyes toward Josh Groban??

Did you consider

You have no plan and do not live for today?

Who?  I'd rather not say who gave me the idea, but I don't mean it sarcastically!

HOW

does 1 go about getting to sing with Josh Groban and be on real speaking terms with other famous people, like the people I communicate with on Twitter: Bella Thorne, Chloe Moretz, Lindsey Stirling?  Funny, the 1st 2 are born in a popular year younger and the later is younger but in my class and also does classical music, well definitely hard music.

Vocaroo

The beginning is more energetic.  Not sure of a rating, like 3/5.


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IMDb - The Soapbox

Native Americans

What do you think of all the Americans with Native American? What about the Europeans with Askenazi Jewish? The Scandinavians mixed with Mongoloid as in not Caucasian like the Middle Easterners?

I just got a message

from Tulane, next to my old college, and they are all hinting I go to Juilliard.

"We don't have remedial courses.."

Update

Personality Tests

MBTI: ENFJ
Enneagram: Adventurer 7
Archetypes: *Fashionista (rather than Artist|Creative)
Personality Plus: Powerful Choleric (a fierce leader)
Kingdomality: Prime Minister

*Had to Chose Myself

Which new movie next?

Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles
Step Up All In
What If (drama with a cute young girl and Harry Potter)

me 3.. maybe not? maybe it's time to split, normally I'd see things like the turtles.

Vocaroo

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1st 2 songs not that great..

only a few ok things- so guess don't listen, tho I won't be the same again, the later songs seem okay overall

I left at like 4:45 AM and walked @ the therapist's for like at least 2 hours, not too tired.

I have 5 polo shirts and 5 pants like that and 2 blazers.  The blazers are size 12.

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